This is not just an article. It is also my heart which I am opening to you. I never thought that I would ever express my love to someone by writing. In fact, after my first experience in love, I never thought that I would fall in love again. But surely fate had decided otherwise. You came in my life.

I really didnt notice you the first time I saw you. It is only after I got to know you that I realised that you were my kind of girl, the one I thought I would never meet. I thought that I would not be too serious in love because I wanted to take things lightly till I get to know everything about you. But I could in no way help myself from falling in love. Everything was feeling so nice in my life. I was not really having a good health before, because I had a quite negative attitude towards life and I was really neglecting my health before. I dont know how you did it, but you changed my life.

I was so happy to be in love, until I got to know that you have a boyfriend. You wont be able to imagine how I felt at that time. It was so difficult for me to digest the fact that I fell in love for the second time only and yet I was heart broken. I learnt about your boyfriend when one of my friends said he had seen you with a guy in Port Louis. And moreover you had not entered the law class that day. It was a Friday; just one day before the law test; the tutor had replaced a lecture which she had missed before. Moreover I had borrowed your law copybook before and I had to return it to you on that Friday itself when you said you would wait near the bus shelter. I was so hurt to know that you had someone in your life and yet I could not blame you at all because you broke my heart without knowing it. The following day, I could not concentrate in the law test and I had to leave the test very much early.

After that I thought that I should avoid you but then I realised that I would not be able to avoid during three years. So I decided that I would try to forget my love and smile even when I could not really do so. I changed myself and started to joke a lot and gradually it became part of me. You are a really nice girl and at that time I thought that we could still make good friends. But still it was not easy for me to forget that I love you. Then I wrote an article My kind of girl who was no one else than you. Youve read it without even guessing for a second that you were the one who unknowingly broke my heart. Then I asked you what I should do about my kind of girl. I thought that you would encourage me to forget the past and look forward to the future. But what you told me really confused me that day. Moreover the irony was that you said that you hope that I get my kind of girl without knowing that you were talking about yourself.

I was unsure if I should confess my love to you as you had advised me to. Even Pooj told me to be patient and keep hope. At that time she did not that you were my kind of girl but surprisingly she did have a doubt about it. Despite all these advices, I had decided that I would give up because I didnt want to lose your friendship. But later on, you lent me your IT copybook in which there were some romantic poems which I thought you had written for your boyfriend. At that time, I was even more hurt because I never thought that you would love your boyfriend so much that my love would be nothing in comparison. At the same time, I was feeling guilty because I had read your poems without your permission. So I asked you for forgiveness. But how could I know that it was a turning point of things? I got to know that you were not really serious about your boyfriend. I wiped out my tears and somehow I could see a light of hope in the darkness. I started to really smile again and I started to think positively. I was feeling so positive and I was telling everyone to be so as well. I was feeling so healthy after such a long time.

I used to really miss you a lot when you were away from me. Whenever you were absent, my day would be incomplete. When you were ill and you could not attend the understanding society test, I was not feeling well at all. You can still ask anyone who was there on that day. I was really getting worried for you and I could not focus on the test and I had to leave the test much earlier. And I was feeling guilty at the same time because I was so helpless. I love you and yet I could not help you in any way on that day. I was feeling so helpless and guilty. But I was so relieved to see you on the IT test two days later.

Everytime you are near me, I really enjoy your company. I really care for you, but still I avoided showing you that I do, by fear that you might get to know about my feelings for you.

I spent one of the most beautiful moments of my life with you. I will never forget that I spent my birthday with you by my side. And moreover you were the first person to wish me on my birthday just a couple of seconds after 00.00. It was the most wonderful birthday Ive ever had because I spent it with you.

I do love you, but at the same time, you friendship means a lot to me. If I would never get your love, I would not want to sacrifice your friendship. But still I can tell you that I love you sincerely and you hold a great place in my heart and in my life as well. I dont fall in love easily. But once I do, Im very sincere in my commitment. I really admire you a lot for everything you do.

Whatever your decision, I can assure you that youll always have a special place in my heart, whether as the one whom I cherish from the bottom of my heart or just as a friend. Take all your time and you decide. Im ready to wait how long you wish. Whatever might be your decision, maybe Ill be losing something, but you wont lose a thing.

You are the one Ive been waiting for. But please dont hesitate to tell me if Im not the one youre waiting for. Lifes made up of ups and downs, and Ive been quite acquainted with both, so dont worry about how I might react to the latter. It wont be the end of the world for you or for someone else, so dont hesitate to tell me any of your decision.

Ive got so much to tell you and yet I dont know how to tell you. Perhaps some things are meant to be understood rather than said. As I said before, life is to live with what we get and not with what we want. To get you, Im ready to change myself however you want.

Sometimes I wonder why I have fallen in love. Life would be so simple without being in love. I would not be having so much feeling to hide in my heart. I cannot tell you in words how I felt every time I knew you would be with your boyfriend. You spent quite a lot of time with me and yet you were not mine. We were close to each others but surely not that close. Fate had put me in a real dilemma, where I had to choose between love and friendship. I just could not decide at first. But now Ive taken a decision which I hope will in no way create any distance between us.

Ive got several ambitions and dreams and if life is by my side, I know that I might really achieve them. You are my life. You are part of my life and whether you have a place for me in your life is your decision which Ill accept without any question.

Forgetting my love might be very difficult but it might not be impossible. It is said that time is a great healer and maybe if you are not mine, Ill be sad for a moment and then perhaps time might heal my wound. I know that its not an easy decision for you, but just ask your heart if there has ever been a day when youve missed me, if there has been a day when you thought of me, if there has been a day when you cared for me, if there has been a day when your smile belonged to me.

Live not with the one you want to, but with the one you can live with. I know that we are quite different from each others but Im ready to change as I told you before. If you want, Ill forget that punctuality is a virtue and Ill even stop to joke and make others laugh. Love me for a reason; let the reason be love itself.

It is a strange coincidence that Ive loved only two girls till now and that both of them are named *****. But still the difference is that I never had the opportunity to confess my love to my first kind of girl and yet she hurt me a lot. But thats the past, a past I dont even want to think about.

Once you finish reading this letter, you can listen to the CD I gave you. It might perhaps be my last surprise. Once I had told you that Ill never give you any bad surprise. If unknowingly, Ive not respected my words, you please forgive me.

Perhaps you would never have known about my love if I was not destined to tell you. But every time, I was on the verge of giving up, somehow there was something that gave me hope. And now that Ive already told you everything, I know that maybe Ill be having much to lose, but at least I will not be bearing the pain of keeping this secret in my heart. As you had told me: its better to get rid of the pain than keep suffering. Now Ill have to wait to know if Ive taken the right decision by open my fist.

I would like to tell you a lot of things but time will not favour me. Whatever youve just read is all that I want you to know. And now I leave everything to you. Dont forget that youll always hold a place in may heart whatever your decision and that you have nothing to lose, so dont worry about your decision. Take all your time and if you want to ask me something, you can do so anytime. I just want to tell you a last thing which I havent yet told you. I love you, I really do. All I want is just a chance. A chance to prove you what you mean to me. I love you and I mean it. The rest is in your decision for which Im ready to wait how much you want me to. I love you.

Yours

Mevin

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still telling in front of the person you love towards your feeling for her will be the best thing & the most courage thing to do..c'mon!! come out from your shell!! be strong enough & express it by word & action at the same time!!

Nice love letter I hope it worked.

Thats so lovely, thank you for sharing that. Love letters are the best things in the world.

did it work??? hope so!
Sarah