Dont know if this is the right place to post this but i dont know what to do I feel really selfish. I had an abortion last week and it has hit me bad i dont talk about it to anyone ive cried over it a lot and have started drinkin and smoking and also wanting to drugs to escape; these are all problems but whats worse is that i have been wanting sex a lot (i know i have to wait at least 6 week before i can)i feel extremely guilty and disgusting i had lost my sex drive through my pregnancy and also told my boyfriend i wouldnt be ready for sex for a long time after the abortion, which is what i thought at the time. what i dont understand is why im wanting sex so bad do i really want it or is it another way for me to escape and block out everything!?

babyblue x x

You have 2 things going on. You have emotional self image damage from the abortion. Please seek counciling.

To complicate things you have your body returning to normal after the abortion and hormone levels driving up your libido.

Combine this with the emotional trama and your desire to sooth your emotional pain (ie drinking) Sex is a powerful pleasure and way to sooth emotional pain, but until you address your emotional issues the sex will be unsatisfying.

Please seek qualified help. Sex drugs (alcohol) and rock and roll don't count. I wish you the best.