Don't know why i bother!!

I should know better that everytime i when i think i am pg and then i get a slight brown discharge when my af is due i keep fooling myself saying i could still be pg and it's gonna go away but then it starts getting darker and more of it and then my af comes on fully. So it's just a matter of another day or so and then i'll come fully!! Arrrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!
then bk to square one!
wot am i a fool for keep hoping that each month will be the one!!!
Sorry for ranting!
Just angry with myself!
tc sherri and babydust to you all!!! xxxxx

Hey hun x

snuck on the site to reply to a few of my girlies!!
listen you, dont be angry with yourself, we all get like that i promise you, we convince ourself the cramps could be late ovulation or implantation cramp when its clearly af, we convince ourself we arent bloating it could be pg belly, lol, we are barmy but its what we do to ourselves, no1 said ttc was going to be easy an its probably one of the biggest emotional rollercoasters ive been on!!
dont beat yourself up tho huni an rant away thats what we are here 4 x x x

loadsa love sarah x x x

Thanks hun x

I really should know better as been doing it for a year and half now!
To be honest it's only really the past few months since the start of the year that i've been in a more relaxed time with ttc so i just do not know why this wk i've gone bk a couple of steps cos been doing fine until this wk, sorrry can't continue this!
love sherri xxx

Sorry

I had to dash off then for a cry.
Just not sure how i was meant to be feeling after that chem pg becos i never had a pos hpt as i had did it too late and i only know i was as i had passed a blood clot that looked like a sac, so in my heart i knew but no medical proof.

i've also been looking for a job too since the ... boss as i call her forced me to leave my job last year and just noticed it was this exact date too! it's been really hard finding job with just bout nothing out there in retail. i've had couple of interviews or so but got now where. we're also trying to sort the house and garden out too (both badly needs doing)!

Every so often everything just gets on top of me for a day and then i'll be back on my feet again tomorrow. my oh only works part time at the mo and he's been looking around for a day job too so we can get on each other's nerves so we've come to a compromise of sometimes just being on our own for a few hours each day for our own space.
enough of my ranting for now!

Not gonna give up ttc yet!
Gonna see wot each day brings.

thank you again for 'listening'.

i was wondering how you were doing anyway?

love sherri xxx