Hi girls,

I'm having a bad one today. I would have reached the safety week this week. Looking back, it's all gone really quickly, unfortunately my baby is'nt snug and safe in my tummy. That also got me to thinking about the 5 month old I'd have in my arms if I had'nt lost that one last year too.

I've been really positive over the last few weeks, thought many times about how it wasnt meant to be and when the time comes I'll have a healthy pregnancy. Until then I'll just have to keep trying and keep positive. I guess I'm just having a down day and this is such a great place to come when you need a kick in the pants, a pep talk or just a bit of sympathy and a cyber hug.

Anyway, I'm sending my thoughts to all of you in the same situation as me and wishing you all healthy pregnancies and babies soon.

Sarah. xx

Hi Sarah,

Exactly a week ago i had a medical termination and delivered my baby. Been trying to think positive about things like yourself abut Ive also been having off days. I haven't returned to work yet and I have a holiday booked for me, my parter and my 3 year old step gone into my town shopping been avoiding it as I believe i will bump into someone I know and will have to explain my heartach to them. Not sure how to return to everyday life but can't wait for things to settle down so that we can start trying again (Hope it is as quick as the last time...only took one month, fingers crossed)

Also running out of vases have been given about 10 bunches of flowers, actually begining to hate looking at them just remind me why I been given them and what I lost.

Hope fully we will soon be posting ours thoughts in "Expecting a Baby" Good luck

Love Ashley x x

Hi Sarah,

Know how you are feeling, I would have been coming up for 10 weeks not quite the safe 12 weeks but all my miscarriages have been less than this so would have been feeling hopeful.

Life is cruel at times but as I do, you want a healthy baby and obviously there was something not quite rightwith ours. I know this explanation does not always help but it is true.

I have been hoping that I got caught straight away after my miscarriage and as the time went on, was quite convienced that I had. I think this focus stopped me thinking of the baby that I lost but on day 2 now of A/F and completely gutted and fed up.

Lets hope that this coming month is our turn.

Keep your chin up.

i no exactly how u feel i had an m/c 3 weeks ago and just wen u think your doing ok about it as best u can it all comes tumberling down again an u can think of nothing else! i dont no about anyone else but its taking over my life we are back trying again and if im not waiting for ovulation im waiting for my period and in between the waiting im looking for symtoms im doing my own head in and im not a jelous person in genral but my god i feel it wen i see a preg woman or a newborn, no matter wat anyone says hun u are always gona feel this until the day comes wen u have your healthy baby in your arms. wish u all the luck for the future xx shell

I dont think I would have coped as well with this if it wasnt for this website. Everyone is so suportive and as much as your friends and family offer words of support and encouragement, unless they've been through it, it doesnt really help.

This was my second miscarriage and it was worse emotionally than the last one. I think it was because I was so sure that it wouldnt happen again.

I know what you mean about the jealousy, I'm exactly the same, god, it's so ugly isnt it. A friend of mine at work got pregnant the same time as me, she's still carrying, happy as larry a constant reminder of where I should be. What makes it worse is that she wasnt planning it, she didnt even want it, she's just got used to the idea. How the hell is that fair!!

Anyway, like I said, this is just a bad day, I dont always feel this way. I'm hoping I'll feel much better tomorrow. Back to positive thinking.

Thanks for letting me warble on and for bothering to read.

Sarah. x