Hi there,

I am not too sure where to start or even how to do this.

Last Tuesday 25th September 3am I started getting contractions, I was 40+7 days over due.

When I got to the hospital they had problems trying to find my babies heart beat. I finally gave natural birth at 10.39am the same morning to a Still born but very beautiful Baby Boy called James Peter. He looked so peaceful and just asleep.

The hospital staff were absolutely brilliant and did everything for us, thought of everything and were so kind.

The hospital Chaplin christianed him and did a reading too. I know now James is in a safer and peaceful place with my grandmother and other relations now.

I cant bring myself to post this on my normal 'expecting' forum, as I dont want to worry or scare anyone.

God bless,
Natalie xxx

i am so sorry. just know that you have a beautiful little angel who is in the most happiest place you can ever imagine and he is always watching over you. One
day you two will be together for eternity. if you ever wanna talk, me and everyone else are here. big hugs danielle xox

I'm so sad for you. I really am sorry and i think you're very brave. I was thinking about if that happened to me last night, and i don't think i could go on.
You my friend sound like a very brave lady. RIP James Peter xx

Thank you so much for your message.

Its amazing what we can cope with when faced with things.
Its like a survival instinct that kicks in. And the amazing love and support we have recieved has really helped me through.

I would be nothing with out that I know and pray that it all continues and that I can help others in the future, that will be my life purpose.

Thank you so much, God Bless you all..

Big Hugs,
Natalie xxxx

Hi there all,

Just to let you all know we had a very beautiful and special funeral and memorial service for Baby James Peter yesterday.

It was an absolutely lovely day, with the sun out and deep blue skies to warm and comfort us.

The service was more than I could have hoped for and we had a wonderful Vicar called Charlie Goring who led it.

He made it so special and I now feel some releasement, peace and glad in the knowledge we have given Baby James a good send off.

Thank you so much for your messages, each day seems to be getting a bit better and I know I know I wouldnt be half as strong without the lovely people on here and around me.

Its funny how we all deal with grief differently, what helps me is to focus on the positives and all the love we have received.

We are all different and no one way to grieve is the right or wrong way. Its just going to take time and patience.

Thank you so so much, take care & God Bless,

Natalie xxxxx

Just wanted to say thank you again for all your huge love and support - wow! its truly amazing and I know I wouldnt be able to be half as strong with out it - so THANK YOU ALL!

We have the funeral tomorrow at 11.15am. Feeling really nervous about it, hope it all goes well and we give Baby James Peter a good send off.

Wish us luck and say a quick prayer if you can. Your thoughts and support mean so much and go such along way.

Life is so short just live each day to its fullest and be kind to everyone.

God Bless & Big Hugs,
Natalie xxxxx

just to say will be thinking of you in the morning and sending you all my love, luck and prayers.

Lots of love,
Clare xxx

Hello,

Firstly, I am so sad to hear your news. I read your posts on the expecting a baby forum a few weeks back and I suffered a miscarriage which is sad but nothing like you have suffered. My heart goes out to you and a big hug to hope that you are bearing up. I don't know about you but I feel like I have been relagated to this forum due to incredible bad luck and hopefully we can all be promoted to the 'expected' forum one day. Be strong and I am thinking of you.

Take Care
Love from
Natalie (another one!! ;0))

Dear Natalie- I became so teary reading your message. I cannot imagine how you've managed to get through this. Can only think that you must be so strong and have so much support around you. Is such awful news.

I hope that you and your family are ok, do take care.

all my love,

Kavita.xx

im so sorry to hear of your loss, i too had a still birth at 21 weeks and am still trying to come to terms with it now 6 months on. your beutiful angel is looking down on you, be strong, he is in safe hands. love and huggs bebe.xxx

Hi natalie

I am so sorry to hear your news, you have given so much advice and support to myself and others on the expecting forum i just had to let you know that i am here for you and thinking of you at this sad time.

Your beautiful baby James is in the arms of the angels now and as you say is in a safer place.

My heart goes out to you xx

Emma

I am so sorry natalie. You gave me and the other mums so much support through our pregnancies and I can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling. My thoughts are with you and your family. God Bless you and your son James Peter

Diana xxx

Your support goes beyond words, for which I will be eternally grateful for. The amount of support has been phenomenal both on here and from people around us.

I'd like to wrap my arms around each and everyone of you and say how wonderful you have all been and are too.

Life is so short and precious, enjoy it and live each day to its fullest please. Dont put up with second best ever.

God Bless you all,
Natalie xxxxxx

hi natalie.

my heart goes out to you. if you need some one to talk too i am more than willing to listen. as i had lost my bub on the 31st of august DECLAN everyone just keeps saying he has a very special name as he has brang the clan together and that is what he has done.. hope to talk soon. xoxo

Cianne

My thought are with you Natalie!
May James Peter rest in peace.
You are in my prayers.
x x x x

Natalie

I to am from the expecting forum I read a recent one from one of the girls to say you'd written on this one,which,was nice of her to let us know as this is the first time I have been on this one.
I've known you since I first went on the forum and i've spoke to you throughout.
I am so terribly sorry about your loss, my heart goes out to you and your family it really does.

Like you said,he is in a safe place.

I hope the future is better for you Natalie and wish you all the best.

God Bless

Racheldee xxxxxxx

Natalie
I'm from the expecting forum and I've posted there a few times and always had words of support, advice and encouragement from you. I have been following everyones journey's and am deeply sorry that yours turned out this way. I have been wondering about you for a few days now.

Please know that you have many friends on here and all your contributions were and still are extremely valued. I have great admiration for courage and your continuing support for others.

Thinking of you.
Donna. x

hi ya im actually from the expecting forum, i always pop over to this forum having gone through m/c 3 times, however i immeadiately recognised your name so read your post,i remember reading your last post too.
what can i say you are an incredibly selfless, brave person,to remain so positive in such tragic circumstances is amazing, when i bet most of the time you probably want to curl up and cry for england (which im sure you have) you sound like such an inspirational person,i went to bed last night having read your post but lost power to pc, and i thought about you all night! i dont pray much, but you were the last person on my mind before i went to sleep, and i hope so much that your coming days are brighter than you expect them to be, i feel you are an incredible person and rather than worrying people on the expecting forum i know that you go far further in showing us all the way..
i,m so sorry that you had to go through this, id give you a hug if i could,but you are amazing
god bless your beautiful boy and your family xxxx

im soo sorry for your los. Just reading that brought a tear to my eye. I also had a still born back in feb 07 at 22weeks. The pain never goes away but trust me it does get easier. Theres not a day that goes by when i dont think of my baby boy 'REECE DAVID'.
I had him cremated and he has his own special place in my bedroom. I hope your pain eases, but it does take time. Thinking of you xx

Thank you so much girls for being there, your advice and support.

It is hard to know what to say, but just knowing that you are thinking of me and your thoughts and prayers go a long way, they really do.

Wishing you all the best for the future, we're all due alot of luck and I am sure no matter what happens things can only get better.

Big Hugs,
Natalie, Peter & Angel James x

I can't imagine how you must be feeling at this time!

I just would like to let you know I am thinking of you at this difficult time and send love and hugs to you and dh.God bless angel James.

If you ever need to talk please don't hesitate to message me

Love Nicki x