Hello,

To anyone who has seen my posts on here recently, you will know what is happening and indeed has happened this year, and over the last few.

As a result of everything hubby and I have been through we do not celerabrate much when it comes to the festive occasions. However we have had a bit of a reality check, I have got my normal routine done early, and felt like a rest I put cable on and it is on halmark, just at the start of a programme called 'a christmas visitor' it will sound very silly, but this film has shown me that I can not greve for my lost churubs all the time, and although thimes are hard as we are going through more bad bits, but I know they are all with me, and I must show them that mummmy although missing them, and wishing they were here will keep going. I am now going to do christmas for the first time in many years, we are going to make it count, and we are going to have all the babys with us, I am getting out their pics and have a family day.

Merry christmas, do ot forget your losses, but do not let the loss destroy your life like I have.

Hope you are able to have a fantastic Christmas. Just remember that for every angel you have lost, there are twice as many people who care about you, including all of us on here.

All the best and hope 2008 is a happier year for you.

Lisa x