Hello...am new to this so still trying to find my way round a bit,hope this works...!
I spent a bit of time on here yesterday reading what a few of you said and it was such a help I felt a bit braver today to actually post - although posting after what I've just read about Natalie has given me quite a huge sense of perspective, what a sad story.

I found out on 10th Dec I was preganant (by my sums around 6 weeks gone) when I went for a smear, when she asked about dates we realised I was a bit late so tested there and then and found out. Was quite a surprise but we were thrilled. Within 24 hours though it started to change and on 11th Dec I started to spot and bleed (on and off every few days it turned out), we had a scan on 12th but were told the sack was there but too small to see what was happening, we went back 10 days later (the waiting was awful) only to be told again it was too small to tell what happening and to come back again on 2nd Jan (again the waiting was awful all over xmas and new year).

However, early that morning on 2nd Jan before we even got the appt I miscarried at home. I was so frightened and it just seemed never ending, I knew to look for clots and the little grey sack so when both came I just felt like my world had ended.

We are devastated and I feel like I'm going mad. I don't know anyone this has happened to and we only have each other to talk to at the moment really, but reading what some of you have said has been so enlightening and my heart just went out to so many of you aswell, so many of said things that I had been thinking. It never occurred to me this might even happen to me and I was so unprepared (even naive maybe).

It's only been 2 days and I can't stop crying or face anyone yet, and I'm so fearful this will happen again I just don't know if trying again is something we are brave enough for yet. Plenty of you have referred to successful pregnancies afterwards though so am trying to cling to some of your hope...

Lots of love
xxx

I m/c almost 6 weeks ago and it was the worst thing i've ever been through. I think for the first week or so i spent my time crying, talking to close friends and family and just generally felt baffled. I couldn't quite get my head round it. I couldn't face even going to the corner shop! Believe me, it does get better. I had 2 weeks off work and that really helped and when i went back i was a bit wobbly but welcomed the distraction of having to think about other things. My mum was just lovely and encouraged me to talk and to cry and to grieve properly because as Sarah says, some people are of the opinion that it was just a bunch of cells and that might help some people but i see it as the beginnings of a life.
Now i'm feeling much much better, last week was a bit hard as i had my first period after the m/c which i was initially glad about as it made me feel like everything inside was still working but i soon got sick of it as it was way longer and heavier than normal (apparently this happens to some and some have really light ones) and became a reminder that i didn't need that i am no longer pregnant and reminded me of the bleeding i had with the m/c. But that's finished now and i feel ok.
Anyhow, although tempted, we are waiting another month before we start as that just feels right for us. I am worried about it happening again but not as much as i was and am trying to stay positive about which is easier now. Just take this time to pamper yourself and talk and cry and give yourself time to recover physically and emotionally and you will feel stronger and know when you are ready to try again. take care and don't hesitate to post or pm me if you have any worries etc,
Rach x x x

firstly so sorry to hear about your loss i to have suffered m/c in fact i had 2 in a row and just when i felt like giving up on trying for a baby i caught again and i am now 14 wks gone!

i no its very raw for you now but never give up hope time is a great healer and im sure you will be ready to try again soon. take care michelle&bean xx

Your not going mad! I had m/c just over a week ago and I still keep bursting into tears. It is getting a little easier. I also bought an Angel pendant so when i feel really low i touch it and know my little Angel is close by. I know how you feel about facing anyone. I went out shopping for the first time yesterday. Had to take my sister for moral support, lol.

Talking and asking questions on here helps heaps. The ladies are marvellous and very understanding.

If ever you want to chat or pm me, please do.

My heart goes out to you and your husband.

Love Paula xxx

It's a terrible thing to go through and it does effect you more than people realise. I've had 2 and each time my doctor has helpfully told me 'dont let it get to you, it's just a bunch of cells'. I dont find these clinical comments at all helpful - it's a baby.

I felt like a failure and instantly convinced myself that it was my fault and I'd never have a baby. I dont know why but I felt like I didnt deserve it. Time does make it easier, I promise, although you'll never forget, the pain eases.

I'm now pregnant again, I caught 2 months after my 2nd miscarriage and I'm 15+5 weeks today. A miscarriage does not mean you'll automatically have another and if you do, like chelle and I, the doctors put it down to nothing more than bad luck.

Dont rush yourself to start feeling better, everything you feel (including the jealousy and loathing of other pregnant woman) is normal and it will subside. Take time out to grieve.

Big hugs and lots of love.

Sarah & Jelly. xxxx