i went to the epau on fri afternoon coz i had been bleeding from the thurday afternoon. i had a scan and there was nothing to be seen so she did a tvs. there was a mass by my right ovary/tube. my blood levels showed an hcg level of 8082 which was too high to be treated by methotrexate so i went to surgery on saturday to get my tube removed and this is me back home today feeling like a truck has run me down.

the consultant says that my left tube looks ok if we wnat to try again but this is my 2nd ectopic pregnancy and theres no way mike or i could go through this again. we're just so grateful we've got 2 wonderful kids so we're not going to try again. the thing thats sticking in my head the fact that yesterday was mothers day and mike had got me a pressie from chloe and callum and he'd got me body shops body butter from bump and of course now i'm not going to get stretch marks.

i feel like my world has come crashing down. i dont know what to do with myself

My heart goes out to you both and your family. I two have only got one tube working and i had a m/c in dec07.
The pain is still here and we too are thinking what is the point in carrying on

I do undersatnd that you dont know what to do with yourself i feel that way too. I know that im not much help but i just want you to know that i do undersatnd and im here for you whenever you need me. You van pm anytime

hang in there hunny. Love and hugs coming your way
Love Linzi xxx

I'm so sorry for for your loss huni. Life can be so cruel. Try to keep strong babes. I've only had one m/c, that was bad enough, i can't even begin to imagine the pain you are suffering now. But don't forget we're all here for you anytime you need us.

Thinking of you all
Big hugs and love
Paula xxxx