3 months ago today I lost my beautiful baby at 11 weeks. I experienced bleeding for 2 days before and when the pain became too much to bear, we went to A&E where I lost my baby, this image still haunts me.... Today I still feel numb and alone. 2 weeks after I lost our baby, my partner left me saying he no longer wanted to be in a relationship as it didn't feel right. I haven't heard from him since. I am surrounded by loving friends and family who have supported me and listened to me while the last few months have passed by in a daze. Not only have I lost the precious baby that I loved so much, he has changed my dreams for the future. I am trying hard to focus on all the good things around me, the smallest things like the sun shining or a bird singing...Someone once told me that we are never sent anything that we are not strong enough to deal with...but some days I do wonder where this extra strength comes from...
I miss my baby every day and it's comforting to read the messages on here from people who have happy endings.
Life continues to test us and although it's impossible to understand why things have to happen the way they do sometimes, I hope one day, I can find peace in all of this.
Lots of love to all
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im so sorry to hear what you are going through.

the emotional pain and physical pain of a m/c is bad enough but to have yo partner leave too must be really tough. i know you say your trying to look on the bright side, well your still here to tell the tale, your friends and family have supported you welll by the sounds of it!

you life plan may look a little different now but i promise you it will be ok you will be happy. i m/c 10 weeks ago the pain is still sooo strong i should be havin my 20 week scan next week, but i try to remeber its nothin i did wrong and it was not meant to be. m/c can occur due to chromosone abnormality so prob best to happen early on although still think its so un fair. you sound like a very strong girl , i strongly believe what dont kill us makes us stronger. you have survived this ordeal and every thing will be ok in the end!!

im sending you big hugs sorry if ive babbled

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Thank you Claire, it's so good to hear your kind words...you are right, it is nothing we did wrong, we are blessed and I take great comfort in the knowledge that those who come into our lives, for however short a time, are safe and loved wherever they may be now.
I have been scared at thinking about dates in the future but maybe we can can think about our beautiful babies on these days with love and a smile. I hope he can forgive me for not being the mum that I should have been.
I know we'll come out of this stronger and with a different dream for the future, it really helps to talk about everything and just acknowledge that it's painful and my heart is breaking. Thank you again for your reply, sending you big hugs too.
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