Hi All

It isn't looking very good. I started bleeding last night...nothing too much but on the tissue when I wipe after going to the toilet. I didn't have any pain or anything it was just there.

I have got up this morning and it is only there when I wipe but I have got mild period pains.I was lucky and my GP was the duty doctor today so she has arranged a scan for Monday to see what is happening. In the meantime she has told me to take it easy and given me the speel of how lots of women bleed in early pregnancy etc.

I am not holding any hope and I know the weekend will bring the answer to the scan before we get there.I feel it wil just be a formality. I still feel totally drained and need a wee all the time but my boobs are not hurting at all today.

I feel remarkably calm and I know DH is waiting for me to crack but I really feel in control. I know my age is against me,I am 41 in just over a week. The blood tests have proven nothing wrong and we have given the homeopathic route a good try.My consultant says it is because my eggs are not as good as they were 10 years ago and to keep trying as hopefully one will be!

Rambling I know but just totally pi**ed with the whole situation!

Love Nicki x

hey honey sorry to hear your going thru this. there is always hope untill your told other wise. but i know how you feel with my second m/c when i started bleed which was not alot i just knew!!and i was right but ive read so many people bleeding early on and having normal preg/ wishing you all the luck let me know how you get on ok?? try and relax not that you will but you know what i mean

big hugs for you and family xxx