thanks girls for your kind words and support this forum has been a life saver for me as im sure it has for you too..

thinking of you all big hugsxxx

im 6 weeks on from second m/c and been doing ok had a emotional week last week as i was birthing partner to my sis. totlay amazing and greateful i was there but messed with my head totally too. i saw the placenta and although much much larger it was exactly like what i passed when i m.c both times. bought it home hard.

im slowly getting over missing being pregnant, lost a lil bit of weight which has helped.

but i was watching x factor sat and this girl sang a song for her mum who died and the lyrics were loveley bout how she was grateful she had been in her life and she watching over her...

i blubbed sooo hard and im crying now i miss my babies that never made it into my arms and the pain is still so raw at times. every love song i cry at as i think of my babies.

when i lost my first all i saw was white feathers some peolple belive they are signs of angels. ive never belived this. i saw white feathers when i lost my second. i swear they are a sign from my babies i see one every day. i was sat with my family on a day out today and one landed on my mug, ive found them in bed, on my shoes, attatched to the inside of my dressing gown. i may sound mad but its spooky!!

does any one else have these moments of break downs i feel so alone as every one including oh seems to have moved on and forgot and i just cant forget!!

sorry to put on such a long post thanks for reading it xxx

that x-factor girl made me cry too!

I am with you on the ups and downs as well, I'm only 2 weeks post my 2nd MC and although both were early, the feeling of loss is the same and I have good days and bad days.

Men have the luxury of not feeling like their bodies have failed them, they feel saddness and grief but then put it to one side and look to the future. With my first MC I felt the same as you that oh had moved on too soon and I felt that he did not understand my grief. For them it is over as soon as they are told we have MC, we however bleed, maybe have an intervention to complete the process, have to wait for af and the re-inforcement that we are no longer pregnant. I know it was not easy however for him to see me all over the place and that it affected him more than he showed.

I'm absolutely sure your oh has not forgotten or moved on, he may be giving the outward signs of his moving on for your sake but inside he may well feel different, grief affects different people in different ways and everyone handles it differently, perhaps he feels like he needs to be strong for you?

I don't think its mad, your little angels will always be with you

My thoughts are with you, big hugs and best wishes

Rachel x

thanks girls for your kind words and support this forum has been a life saver for me as im sure it has for you too..

thinking of you all big hugsxxx

It's been 3 months and 11 days now since my m/c. I do feel better this month, but I still cry more than I used to. Its weird by I was crying at the same song on the x factor for the same reasons.

Babe, you might think that you are alone but you are not. So many women on this board know exactly how hard it is to go through a m/c. My dh is the same. He thinks that if we dont talk about it, it will go away. I told him that even if we dont talk about it, I still think about it every day...All I think everytime I see someone pregnant is how big my bump would have been now.. My due date would have been in new years eve. I dont know how I will cope if I am not pregnant by then.

I dont think you should forget your angels, I will never forget mine but it will get easier as time goes by, and I realy believe that our time will come to hold our baby in our arms.

take care babe, lots of love and hugs

tania

i miscarried four years ago, and never got over it..... 5 weeks ago i lost my second baby which was longed for more than any1 will ever know. i am so positive now to do everything right, i had hubby in bed 9 times throughout saturday as i only ovulated one day this month, your feathers is a lovely way to help heal your heart, i believe things happen for a reason, but for any1 that doesnt believe, i think if you want to believe they are from angels you keep telling yourself that, it will happen for you, dont give up, and hopefully your feathers will never stop falling and your angels will always want to say hi to their mummy, but soon enough your miracle will happen, and when it does you can hold your bundle of joy and hopefully help you overcome the trauma of your loss
lots of hugs and thoughts being sent your way, keep trying xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxsarahxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxx