I am 51 years old. When I was 19 I had a termination. I didn't want to shame my parents, so I went ahead with it and didn't tell anyone.

There is so little time goes by that I have not thought about that baby. I have two grown sons with children of their own. My eldest son was born 7 years after my termination. At the time I had the operation I didn't understand how it was performed..I should have asked. It was a barbaric act. It may be the best thing at the time....but I am asking you to just think....then think some more.

I deeply regret my decision. I have had to live with it and I know I made the wrong decision.

Just be very sure..................

i have to say first you are soo brave, and dispite what happend to you i admire as much for not forcing opions onto people.
im 21 and had my termination last year and as such i dont feel bad about the decision i made ( im not heartless) but like you advise i thought about it, and thought very very hard and came to my own decsion for myself, not for my pearents,my boyfriend or my friends but for me. at the time i had just also gotten of my medication for sevear depression agrophobia and anixity which i have been suffering from since the age of 15 and i belive that if i brought a baby in i would have harmed myself more or brought back an onset of my mental health problems as the prospect of a baby was to daungting at the time.
im not one for putting my religious belifes on here(i am practicing pagen which christianty is based on)but personaly i belive souls never go away and come back to you, i know the soul that i couldnt have is waiting to come back to me at a better time for the both of us
thankyou for being so honest XXX

Thanks for your posting. I find it very brave of you, and very kind to warn other girls in a crisis pregnancy.

I hope you are not suffering from depression. I know that there is a way to be happy again, to seek forgiveness from your aborted child, your Maker, and then forgive yourself. You can go on weekend retreats which would help you to bring closure and grieve over your lost child, and your lost motherhood. Check out Rachels Vineyard - just google these two words and read on from there.

I sound like a broken record sometimes on this forum, but I know from family experience that abortion hurts women so much, and the ironic thing is that the pain can suddenly start 5, 10 or even 20 years after the fact.

Know that you are not alone in your pain,

Take care dear grandmother of two.

Siobhan