Super mommy
I really take my hat off to you as I have one and he alone keeps me super busy, so you must be running around in circles every day  I really encourage you to listen to what your own heart is telling you in this situation, you said yourself "... i dont like the idea of having my baby being sucked out of me..." cause this is a serious matter so lets get serious, as much as they try to down play the procedure, that, as you yourself have just stated, is what they do- suck it out.
you have to ask yourself as a mom of three little ones, would you ever let someone try to hurt them? I doubt it! if you and I are anything alike, then any person who tried to do our kids harm would land up regretting it. well your first three are on the outside, this fourth one is on the inside. and that baby is there for a reason-because it's too young and defenseless to face the world, it's inside you because you, out of every woman on the planet are the one who could best defend and protect it!!and the one who could best raise it!
I'm sure there have been really tough days, I'm sure there have been up's and down's. but you have come so far! imagine if this situation was going on when you were pregnant with your third baby, imagine if you had aborted that little angel of yours. could you imagine the gap in your life where that baby should have been??? how your other two would be missing out, from all the companionship etc. you will miss this one just the same. there is a special place in your life just for this little blessing that is growing inside of you right now.
as for this man of yours, I'm sure he couldn't imagine life without these little 3, mabye he'll come around when he see's your mind is made up to keep your little angel,or when he see's that beautiful little newborn face. I have a friend who has one child and her husband also made the same threats when he found out she was pregnant with the second one. she told him she was keeping it and he left. a week later she had a fall and went to the hospital, the baby was fine but he phoned, distraught.He came back and she is two weeks from delivering today Yes, there are no guarantees, he might never contact you again, but you have to honestly ask yourself, do you want to be with a man like this?? mabye this will be the event that shows his true colours, and you will then atleast know the truth...
as for kids, they are stronger than we think (as we often are aswell..) if he does leave, perhaps there is a better man who will come into their lives and be a wonderful daddy to all 4 of them, until then,just do your best to give them a strong male role model, be it a friend or family member.
I am always here if you need to talk, just please think long and hard. and listen to your heart and what this baby is telling you to do
thinking of you supermommy
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