I found out 4 days ago that im pregnant, to my boyfriend of 2 months. I was pregnant at 19 and i had an abortion, i was in no posiiton and didnt even take time to think then just had to have one. I was 2 months pregnant and suffering from the most terrible sickness 24/7. After the abortion i had a nervous breakdown, and only really recovered from this within the last year. After the abortion i vowed not to have another if i did end up pregnant again. My boobs are really sore, i have lower pains and upset tummy that wont go.

I left that relationship about 4 months ago which was a very hard relationship and 2 months into this one have fallen pregnant, im an absolute mess, im not sleeping cant stop thinking, its harder as my 20 year old brother has just announced him and his girlfriend are having a baby, my parents split up 2 years ago and my mum doesnt live anywhere near me. I am the closest to my dad but cant talk to him as hes going thru alot at this time of year and has had enough stress.

My boyfriend is being amazing, couldnt ask for anyone to be better,hes very confused also doesnt know what to do.It has really made us strong after a 2 month relationship.

I never planned on having kids after my abortion, wanted a career to move to a big city maybe travel, and now what.... my boyfriend doesnt want that he is happy where he is.. this is causing us problems..im so scared il hate the baby if i keep it though and scared il want it not near me.. i dont want to go thru another abortion and im not a teenager now, but i want a life, dont want to be at home everyday on my own with a baby, i do modelling, im a dancer... but my gut instict right now is to keep it. Please please can you give me some advice or help me in anyway... I dont know what to do or where to start thinking or anything...Please help me.

I have never been in this situation so can't really say anything useful except that I think it says a lot that you had a nervous breakdown after your previous abortion.

my heart really goes out to you on this one...if you have another abortion is it going to affect you like it did last time? do you feel that your going to fall apart if you go thru with it? you are obviously someone who isnt able to just do it and move on with your life like nothing happened.
i had an abortion 6 months into getting into a relationship with my boyfriend, but we dealt with it and are still together 3 and a half years later and hope to start a family in the next couple of years but i do sometimes wonder if i could of just kept it and i would be in exactly the same position im in now.
it is very confusing and hard but try to thing about your current situation and your partner do you see yourself staying with him-try to think really realistically, has he said he would like to keep it? have a good chat with him and see where he stands with no pressure on him and take it from there.
hope this has helped you a little, feel free to message me if you want a chat.
charlotte xxx