hi i used to self harm probably everyday, an if im so stressed i will resort to it again even though i dont like it. i'm very emotional and depressed i'm seeing a councillor at the moment but i've always felt fat, ugly and a freak, my mates try to help but i'm just so low. recently i've started making myself sick by forcing the end of a toothbruth down my throat to throw up. i get upset but i feel much better after i do it. ive been doing this for 2 weeks after every meal, i only have maybe 1 or 2 meals a day. i used to not eat but all my mates had a go at me and i thought if i eat in front of my friends then go the toilet i can throw up and they wont suspect anything, its taking over my life, i'm getting even more petrified to go outside recently because i think that people will look at me and call FAT! i dont get bullied but i just cant help thinking this. someone help please. (i cant tell my councillor! or parents! just dont want to!)

does anybody understand?

you sound as if you are having a rough time but trust me there are people who can help you you must tell someone.maybe a friend?what you are doing can damage your throat at the very least.please tell someone all the help you need is there for you just ask it is hard i know but that first step of asking for help makes you feel better.i know. i do understand .be safe

i really do want to tell a friend but im scared to, when a friend told her best friend she was making herself sick she gave her this weird expression and told her she was a freak. i dont want to be called a freak, im just so scared :'(

you are not a freak and i know asking for help can be scary but trust me you will be glad when you do.plus being scared for a little while really beats being scared for the rest of your life.take care.

Ok Well I'll be 14 in April And Well I am A self harmer 2!!! my mom doesn't know and I see a counsiler once a week so they check me and my harms (Even though I hide the cuts!!)
About a week ago I started to make myself thro up!!! And I know its bad But like Im so over weight its not Funny!!! And like I like the way I feel... Im actually the happiest When
I cut cause when I do Im at my best... I make A's and am a good kid!!! Its just my way of getting stress of!!! When I stopped I was always crying Making F's and just unbearable!!! So should I stop even tho Im happy????

Hi, well i know how you feel it does let the stress go and im 15 at the end of the month! i think you shuld take up a sport or something if you're really over weight,i just can't give up being who i am. i dont eat when i fell fat which is like everyday, maybe a small bit of something to eat but i don't care about my eatin, to be honest im hardly that hungry now so its ok for me, i might starve myself sometimes or if im tempted to eat i'll cut my arms, leg, stomach, etc... but i force my self to throw up even when i haven't eaten anything, i think you're only getting F's because your upset and sad and its affecting your work. my mom and dad didn't know about me self harming but saw my arms when i wasn't concentrating. it sucked.
i hope you get betta xxx

you say your happy then why do you hurt yourself?if someone else was doing this to you how would you feel?you are not a bad person you dont deserve to be hurt.what about getting rid of the stress by swimming or karate or even just goin out for a walk.take care.