Why doesn't he trust me!
My partner and I have been together for more than 3 years - we have a baby due next week and its been a rough trot but we have made it through! Anyway, we broke up briefly last year before X-mas, only for 2 weeks or so and in that time although I did go out with friends etc (to take my mind off the break up), I never so much as looked at another man let alone sleep or kiss someone! Its now a year later and he still questions me and does not believe me when I deny it...he thinks the reason I get so worked up about it is because I am guilty - I am just sick and tired of not being trusted!
To add to this, about 9 months ago (pure coincidence!) I went to visit my aunty & uncle one afternoon, I hardly ever see them and have 3 young cousins and I just wanted to visit to say hi...he now says he doesn't believe thats where I went...this was 9 months ago now....CHRIST!!! I was only gone for a few hours they only live a suburb away.
He just doesn't trust me, he continues to question my past and when I get pissed off about it (remember I am hormonal too!) he thinks its because I am guilty of something...how can I live like this? I love him to bits hence wy I have NEVER cheated on him! Even if I catch up with friends he asks what we talked about, if I just say "stuff" or whatever he thinks we were talking about men, or penises or god knows what!!! If he doesn't get the answer he wants he will continue to PUSH for it even when there is nothing to tell! Then he thinks I am trying to hide something or that I discuss our personal issues with other people...I must admit I used to when we had problems but now I keep things to myself as thats they way he wants it (I respect that).
How can he not trust me, we have both done silly things to each other but I have never been with anyone else - nor have I wanted to. I am backed into a corner arent I?
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