How do i get what he's feeling?
right. i've had a quite bad year. met a guy i really fell in love with, but all of a sudden he broke up and ignored me completely.
i cried for months, then took up some loose sex-thing with some guy i don't have feelings for, dated another guy, who fell for me, but didn't have the right feeling about it and told him.
so, at the moment, i'm not seeing any guy.
BUT: all through this time of different feelings and confusion, there has been a guy (let's call him mr.x)among my friends. i first met him in april, when i was utterly crazy about this other guy, who dumped me a few weeks afterwards...
though mr.x looks absolutely fab and is a charismatic talker, he didn't have the slightest chance to conquer my heart THEN.
he's a very polite, very formal person. so, there has been some unusual distance in the beginning. he also loves to mystify himself. 
well, we're both joining the same reading group, where we meet about once a month.
now, just about two to three months ago, our relationship warmed up a bit. we exchanged some e-mails and he's also invited me to his housewarming-party. what's more: he's getting more and more playful and funny during our meet-ups in the reading group.
i'm sure, i'm a favorite with him, but i didn't think much about it, it was just friendship getting deeper.
i wrote a story this summer, and, to be true, it's very much about myself, being lovesick. still, as i always wanted to write and that was the very first story i actually finished, i decided some months later (that is: two weeks ago) to give it to someone, so that he can tell me, wether it's a well told story - or just rubbish. in my stupidity, i chose mr.x, as i trusted him and he didn't know about my love life desaster, so that he would be able to judge the language, the style etc. (one of my best friends would just have made me a cup of tea). he's able to tell a good story from a bad one.
right. i asked him to read it, and he said he would.
ok. just some days afterwards it struck me that i actually have deeper feelings for him. i mean, you know, my tummy getting funny when he's around etc.
don't ask me, why i didn't realize earlier!
good, well. first of all: he's hell good looking, whereas i'm just average. i mean, chances aren't that good that he would choose me.
moreover, we're "just friends" and in that reading group together, i like him a lot and he likes me, too, so i don't dare to blurt out a "i love you" or sth like that.
and: he's got that embarrssing text! it's like standing naked right in front of him. he's read it by now and wants to talk it over with me.
this is so... gosh, i don't know what to do. i cannot talk with him about my text - which is only about love and even sex. f*ck.
moreover: how can you possibly tell with such a well-educated man, who can wear masks of politeness etc so EASILY, if there are feelings other than friendship. 
PLEASE, give me some well-meant advice!!!
thank you! 
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