I really need an advice!

Hi, really i dont know how to start. im married about a year, my husband is older then me. several months ago i discovered that before we met he had sex with men, and as he said, he really enjoyed it. when i told him, that he needs to make a choice, if he wants to have sex with men, i cant live with him.he answered that he loved me,he didnt want hurt me, and would never cheat on me. So, we are still together, but every time we are making love, i cant stop thinking about: with whom is he having sex-with me or he fantasize about men? And to be trueful, for a long time our sex live is not good at all.
I dont know what to do!! How to live with a bi-man!
And sorry, if the message is not understandable, i have a mess in my head, and also, english is not my mother tongue!
Thanks.

In reply

Hi, Seriously you need to see someone or talk about it more to try and get rid of these feelings and images if you want to save your relationship! At least he's told you and theres no secret about it..if he says he wont cheat you need to trust him cause feeling like this is going to eat away at you and make things worse and it certainly wont be helping your sex life!
If you cannot deal with this you need to tell him and then together discuss if can continue in your relationship or not?....

Good luck...xxxx

Thank you for answer!

Thank you for you answer, but, really, I dont know with whom can I speak! Yes, i can ask my husband to take me to see a therapist, but, first, how can i ask him about this, and second, do I want to speak about it in private? I mean to see somebody, look in his eyes, and speak about this?
I understand, these feelings are eating me, its very right word! But how can I trust him now? Its not like he told me the truth, its only because he left something in the wrong place, and i discovered it, and, yes, it was wrong,but i went through his e-mails to understand what is going on? I luv him, and he luvs me, I know! And when I try to say something about this, his answer is: I cant change my past, i loved it, but I luv u, but I think about THAT too, but i dont want to cheat on u!
Im confused!!!
xxx