Forgive and forget?

Ive been with my gf coming up to 3 years now. We've been pretty smitted, been away together a lot, i actually love being with her and even after 3 years a felt like i was more and more in love everyday. But 2 weeks ago she went on a "girls" holiday with 5 mates. She was pretty distant after a few days of being there, told me all her mates with"getting with lads" etc. Anyway she got back a week later and i knew something was up. I asked her the next day if theres anything she wanted to tell me and she said no.
I went to work, i couldnt get the thought of "what if" out of my mind. I eventually cracked, logged on her facebook and there it was. Messages from some lad she met on holiday, and she had messaged back. What stood out was just managed to get rid of my boyfriend so i could talk to you.

Im not joking, if you have been in this situation i think i'd rather be hit by a truck. I threw up at work, couldnt breath. Went home straight away and confronted her. I was a wreck. She told me she was confused and me being 22 and her being 19 she didnt want to settle down yet. So i left, told her to throw away all this for some lad on holiday.

She didnt sleep with him, they only kissed a few times but they me up on holiday one more that one occassion. She came back a couple of days later, said she loved me, begged me to stay. I decided to make try and make it work but can i forgive and forget? She has told him to never speak to her again, i saw the message. I know she's not in contact with him now.

Its only been a week since all this happened and I admit I am finding it easier, im not in tears anyway! When im with her I starting to be myself around her again and things are close to normal. But when im at work i think about it a lot. I love her still, i couldnt imagine wanting to be with anyone else tbh. But now im insecure as hell. I find myself checking her emails etc everynow and then without her knowing, and im frightened to death it might happen again.

Does it get easier??? Should i just see it as a blip in something that been an amazing period of my life, or will i struggle to trust her again???

Time and trust

There are a lot of issues here. Firstly, she shouldn't have risked what you had on a brief fling on holiday. You on the other hand shouldn't have checked her messages as 'Eavesdroppers seldom hear good of themselves' and this is why even after the case is over, you're still checking her mails.
I have to say that what your girlfriend did was out of order and the comment of getting rid of you to talk to him was most disrespectful to you - not just the relationship. But you've said that you love her dearly so perhaps your relationship can withstand this but it will take a lot of work from both of you. Firstly, she needs to understand that she has broken something important and will have to WORK to get that trust back. She needs to understand that this will be a slow and gradual process, and this is her doing. You also need to understand that it's NOT COOL to check up on someone and if you're still having trouble trusting her without checking her messages, then perhaps this rift isn't heal-able. You cannot say that because she's violated your trust in the past, this entitles you to breach her privacy. It has to stop. Now. If there is to be a chance of future happiness and trust.
All the best, hope it works for you.
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