What do i do?
so i am 20 yearsold .. have been with my boyfriend pat since i was 15 and we have a beautiful little daughter together. i take care of my daugher, go to school and work a couple nights a week. he has a good job in construction yet he has not saved a dime since the day i was pregnant to get a place for us to live so we are living seperately in our parents home. It annoys me because he can save money so easily because he has not one bill to pay except his cell phone. Dont get me wrong he never has a problem buying me and our daughter the things we need or want. This past month he has been out of work and he wont look for another construction sight to go on. So money is tight but it should be a little easier for me because I have a helping hand right? wrong. he goes home whenever he wants and will wake up in early afternoon while i am up with our teething daughter all night and manage to do all my homework and study. i do not mind at all taking care of my daughter but what the hell..hes doing nothing. shes our responsibility not just mine. when i try to explain my feelings to him he hears me but doesnt listen at all. he has no consideration and is always talking out of his mouth. he goes out whenever he feels like and i never ask for a break. the other night i was up until four and then had school the next day so i napped when i got home and he has the nerve to say he gave me a break! wow .. one day out of 15 monthes. i laughed at him cos i could not believe he said that. and then he does all that apologizing crap .. the thing is i know i am such a good person and i deserve so much better and when i leave him alone for a few days hes banging on my door and i take him back i think cos it is so convient. so what do i do? wait and try to make it work or really let him go and if i do how do i show him im for real and move on with my life. i feel so stuck .. i look at him and he is not the man i fell in love with .. he has it soo damn easy and doesnt even appreciate it .. sorry for the rant but i must say i feel alot better!
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