Shall i stay or shall i go....

Iv been with my bf for two years now i love him soo much, but i just cant seem to let go off the past!
when we first started going out, he kept things from me like seeing other girls at night instead of me ect
up to about a year and a half this was going on for well the lies anyways!
and we have had a fair few break ups for week or two here and there!
and now i still think his lieing to me all the time and the girls he has lied about he still talks to and he knows it winds me up he says ''he dont talk to them anymore'' but i cant help but think otherwise!

i feel crap because i talk to guys ect yet he dont care but iv never lied about anythink to him! and i get funny and jelous and start an arugment about the girls he talks to

i think im not normal! our relationship aint normal! (two years and iv must of slept over at his about 10 times!) its sooo different from other people!

this is my first proper relationship! HELP PLEASE!

"shall i stay or shall i go....

he may not feel the same love for you that you feel for him. have you ever thought that maybe he has only been using you for sex. And he really does not want to be in an exclusive relationship with you. if he is still seeing sleeping with girls while you two are supposedly in a relationship then maybe the best thing you could do for yourself is leave.

Wow

It's scary how similar our situations are. I know how you feel - my boyfriend had been constantly spending time trying to get his leg over a mutual friend of ours and used the phrase "Oh she fancies me" as his excuse in case the time came where she would talk to me about it (in a sense, accusing her of being jealous and telling me about what he's been up to in order to wreck the relationship).

It isn't that normal to be honest, but then again what is? If a guy is right for you he wouldn't spend time with these girls or even humour them. I can understand why you get riled up about these girls - I would. I've only slept at my boyfriend's house about five times. You're perfectly normal - then again, you're hearing this from someone who still likes the Ninja Turtles.

Since I'm in a similar predicament, I'm not sure what advice to give you. But if things don't end up well with this guy, there are always better blokes who are more worthy of your time. I still think he's an arsehole because of the "other girls" thing and that if there's any insinuation it's still going on, I believe you should leave him. I know it hurts because you love him - believe me, I do - but some guys are just not worth it because no matter what you do for them, and no matter what they "do for you", they will always be number one. He could buy you the most extravagent gifts and make romantic gestures worthy of movie clichés, and still be banging someone else behind your back.

I hope that you won't be too hurt about this and that things get better for you. And I'm certain someone else here has much better advice which will be a lot more helpful - so until then, remind yourself why you're still with someone like that (despite the fact you love him) and if he really is the guy for you.

Take care. x