need some to talk to please

hi my names sabrina 22.

long story short.

ran away from home age 17 with a guy of the net who 24. why? becus of my family, never felt loved, along with other reasons.
never returned home until 2 and ahalf years later. why did i go home? becus i was in an abusive relationship with that guy fell pregnant had amiscarage. i left that guy only to be raped by two guys on a night out that went wrong. so i went home to my parents. met another guy, thot he was the one so nice to me, south african, 1 and ahalf years together, found out hed cheated with numerous girls. then found someone else, moved away from parents within months i was living with him. nice guy, never did nething rong, he was night shift, i felt lonely, no friends, cheated on him. left him. got flatshare everything goes well with job, new this otherguy for 3 years he lived down england , went to meet him, had the best weekend of my life, it was like fate. but then i met someone else,so i stopped speakin to him, i regret not findin out how it would have been with the guy from england. . left everything behind, moved again with my new partner, hes turkish, so now my family disown me. i have no family no friends, no job atm bcus i hav an illness regarding my blood. going to turkey in 3 weeks to get married and have a honeymoon. hes the nicest guy ive ever met, gods honest truth, anything i want, and no matter how sad i get or angry i get, hes there for me. but becus i have no family or no friends and im not working, im all alone. ive put on weight, so i feel ungly and fat and i feel like my life is never going to be be how i want it. please i need someone to speak to

Relationships

hey there hun ,if i wos you i would just live on my own for a while, you certainly do seem to have some problems.
im sure that your not ugly as you say just a bit down. do you think that getting married will change your life.mmmm. i hope so hun so babe good luck and hope it all turnes out as you want it to.....best wishes .katie.x

Need some to talk to please"

I think you are looking for love in all the wrong places. And the fact that you have been in so many relationships that haven't worked out maybe your looking for your night in shining armor. How long have you been with this guy that you are ready to marry him. i think you should continue dating him still stay engaged, work on building back your family relationships. then get married your life seems like a mess and if you go forward likr this you will only bring the past along with you and maybe ruin something that is meant to be.

Heyy..

heyy sabrina..can i ask whats your family background like? are they strict? what religion do they follow? hope you dont mind me asking. anyways i hope all goes well for you. and feel free to message back if you want a chat.

Advice

i think that perhaps you shuold sort out yourself before you get married, as it could affect your marriage at a later date.