Im so confused and in denial 
Basically this all started over a year and a half ago when i used to work in this pub, and this guy would come in every nite to drink, so we got talking, and became really close friends. He used to drink a hell of a lot and didnt hide the fact he had feelings for me. Hed be so lovely and tell me how much i meant to him and that hed do anything for me. All my friends at the pub would say go for it hes so lovely but i just didnt feel that way about him.
On new year eve this year this all changed tho, we were both very drunk and hooked up, and this continued for about three months. Hed come to my house every night instead of going to the pub and we got on sooo well. I still didnt feel anything more for him, and we were just having fun, or so i thought. But then i noticed that this was hurting him alot, hed got me , but hadnt really because we werent together. Anyway i think he got fed up of waiting and started to take a step back, this i when i realised i didnt want to lose him and i did want him. So i asked him where i stood with him and he told me he was at the point of moving on. He said im fed up of waiting for you to feel the same way, i then told him i do feel the same way. And so we got together, i think this was maybe a mistake when he said he was going to move on.
Anyway the following night i went out with a few friends to a nightclub and got really really drunk, it wasnt intentional but i was wasted. Then i made the biggest mistake ever, this other guy kissed me, i stopped it of course, but i was so upset i felt i had to tell my new boyfriend what was happened. I was pretty drunk and when he picked me up from the club i just couldnt stop crying i told him i was so sorry and what had happened. Obvuisly he told me where to go, he refused to see me for a few days but when i went over i could see how upset he was and i told him how sorry i was and that id do anything to regain his trust. He decided to stick with me thank god. But our relationship hasnt been easy. I know what i did really jeaopardised it but theres other stuff too.
Weve been together as a couple for a month now, and we argue everyday, i feel sometimes like he isnt bothered, he never texts or calls or wants to see me, i do all of this cuz i know id never see him otherwise. Something has changed, he isnt that sweet lovely guy he was before we got 2gether, all he cares about is sex, and once he gets it he either leaves or goes to sleep! I feel like he doesnt care at all, he doesnt ever tell me how much i mean to him anymore, and frankly doesnt say anything nice. Instead of coming over loads like he used to, hes always in the pub, and sometimes he lies and says he wants an early night but goes out instead, I dont mind if he doesnt want to come over all the time, but to lie about it isnt fair. Iv never lied to him.
Im just so confused, he treats me more like a mate he has sex with, than a girlfriend. Im so fed up. I know what i did was wrong but he says he trusts me now, i just dont understand why he doesnt treat me better. He says he got fed up of waiting for me, but this doesnt mean now hes got me to just stop trying with me.
I dont know what to do, he means a hell of alot to me but i cant go on like this its really getting me down  Do any of you have any idea on how to make things right again?
Sorry for the massive essay but i really want this to work, i just dont think it can at this rate, please help
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