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Have you every tried to make a relationship work so much, that its stressful??

my bf and I have tried everything, we've even been to therapy.

I made up my mind last thurs things were over between us.
than all weekend he's been such a sweetheart.

Thing is, even though he (actually) paid attention to me, I know he's going to go back to his old self, that ignores me and my needs, we'll go back to fighting over money and house work (I pay for 80% of our bills and do about 90% of the house work).

i moved in with my bf 3 yrs ago because he asked, winter driving sucked and living with him would get me closer to work. however none of my friends live close by. and for 3 yrs I have been stuck inside our apartment. I did join the gym, but gave up after a year. with me paying for the majority of the bill, i don' t have much "spending money". I thought about joining sports teams or yoga, but same as above it comes down to money.

I try to hang out with my friends on weekends but than my bf feels like I'm ignoring him. I really can't hang out with friends during the week with everyones time scheduals.

I dont' know if I would be happier with bf if I just had some friends in the area, and didn't depend on him for company. thing is we live in a small town and most ppl keep to themselves.

I've asked for a dog just so I can get out and walk with it, but bf says no.
Everything I've tried to do to get out of the house bf says no.

I have emotionally closed down towards him.

I'm not sure if maybe thats why I cheated. which I don't think I'm going to tell him!

This time around since he wants another chance.
I decided to make a list of things that I want and need in a relationship. I don't know if I'm being childish or just standing up in what I want!

I'm just not sure what to do anymore.

I've tried changing who I was, to become someone that I thought he would want more. (which he loved, but I ended up hating myself) I want someone I can change WITH not change FOR.