I don't know what to do....
Hi guys, i'm new to the relationship forum but really need some advice please.......
My husband and i have been together for 8 yrs now and married 7 yrs, i met him in Barbados and he left everything to come and be with me. The first few years were great but hard work because he is (supposed to be) Jehova's Witness and last year got pretty heated with arguments etc and he left one night after a blazing row. He cheated on me that night and then started a relationship with a girl i usd to go to school with, within a couple of weeks of leaving. I also found out he's cheated one yr into our marriage with a jehovas witnesses wife!! We have a three yrs old boy who means the world to both of us and last year i hit rock bottom when he started seeing someone else. I was soooo depressed i struggled to look after my boy and was put on anti-depressants, i rang crisis teams, did the usual 'text message terrorism' and rang him constantly but this made things worse and i really felt like i would have killed myself if it wasn't for my gorgeous boy. During that period i lost my job, had to quit uni and everything because he wouldn't help with childcare to suit me. I wasn't looking for anyone else but i did meet someone else just before xmas and things started to get better. So as i was getting happy again and starting to move on...my husband comes back, really really sorry, cant believe what he's done and all that. I gave him another chance and we started marriage counselling but it's just not the same, i bring up the past constantly coz i cant forget what he did and how he watched me beg him for my life...then walked away. However, recent months (since jan) have been great, little arguments but nothing major and we decided very recently to try for baby no.2. Then my hours were cut at work quite dramitically and i was near enough forced to quit, so we now have major financial worries and im worried i may have concieved. The other day i found out my husband had stolen £200 off my mother which he admitted (but only coz he got caught out) and things have just got ten times worse.My family are furious with him and say i should end the marriage becuase there's no trust (true) and i have asked him to leave. He's begging forgiveness but he's told so many little lies along the way i dont know what to believe anymore.He still calls himself a jehova's witness!!! he's an absolute fraud!!! In between all the mishaps he was a very good dad and husband but i just cant take anymore...I daren't do anything rash incase im pregnant (wud be too early to test) i have no job, no money and i dont have much help coz my mum has a mental illness, so i would have no help with the kid(s). I have a mortgage to pay aswell...i dont know what to do.....any advice gratefully received
sorry for the essay x x x
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