Well i just give up 
me and my partner have been going through some issues but Ive just had it. We had a mini heart to heart the other day where i told him that bascially i just feel like hes been ignoring me, we agreed to work things out . I know its difficult, we havent got our own place and our baby is 5months old and we havent spent a day alone together since she was born. Theres no physical contact between us and we have done the deed precisely once this entire year! Not because of me either, but he has told me hes not interested, so Im not going to force him, I offered and he knocked me back so whatever. This morning I decided Id try and get the spark back, I went to kiss him and he pushed me away saying I hadnt brushed my teeth, when we had brushed our teeth at the same time just a few hours before! So what else can I do? Frankly I dont even feel close or comfortable with him now. So i give up.
Today was the final straw, I couldnt even believe him. Like I say we havent spent a day or night alone since the baby was born. We went away for the weekend to a wedding, I thought maybe we'd ge tsome alone time. But nope, he didnt stay in the same place as me for 2 days and the third day we got together he slept all morning and had to leave in the afternoon. I didnt complain. then today he says we are going out tonight, minus the baby. I was excited for all of 2 minutes when he said he wanted to bring along this female friend of his. I could NOT believe him. He has never ever taken time to say he'd take me out, but he can arrange to take out this girl! I was mad. I didnt say it then but I said it this evening, hes trying to say but he then said hed tell the girl she couldnt come, and i said ONLY because I said something, not like he thought of it himself! He actually accepted he was wrong, though he tried to argue it for a minute, he realised he had nothing to say and so said sorry next time it wouldnt happen. But to me it just shows Im never a priority, any time we go somewhere, he invites his brother or his cousin, as though spending time alone with me is too much to bare, He said sorry and I accepted so why cant I let it go, Im still getting upset about it right now. Its silly, but its like unless i tel him he cant think of something like that himself. I mean seriously, he wants to take this girl out just because she helped his family one time, but me the wife of his child who he barely ever helps with doesnt deserve to be taken out?
Im seriously fed up and hes trying to make nice and im trying to accept but inside im still annoyed as hell
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