To be honest
Im going away with the baby in a month or so without him, and it will be great to be away from him. Hes not too bad with the baby some days, though I had to have a go at him about it because he would come see us for 10mins and leave, but if his friends invited him down the pub he'd be there like a shot of ages. And he never appreciates how hard it is looking after the baby, and doing my work from home, I havent had a day off since she was born, but he even had the cheek to say' thats what women are meant to do, how will you cope with more etc etc' when I said i was tired. I couldve killed him then. And when I said I needed a break from the baby for an hour or so he said if I wasnt ready to be a mum I shouldnt have had her!!!! He gets stressed when shes restless for 5 minutes, he should try all day! Youre right, he doesnt appreciate anything I do, and he never has. Im not perfect, I can be a right pain in the ass! But ive done so much for him, but it means nothing. Ive spent time away from him in the past and I got all these promises things would be different blah blah, I come home and its the same, Im left alone all the time when hes with his friends. I think thats why its the way it is now, I honestly dont care about him. I left him before the baby was born, and again blah blah promises, but I felt nothing and told him as much. After she was born I decided to give it a go, but I can see hes selfish and arrogant. I think this time if we leave Ill be highly tempted not to come back because theres nothing to come home to. Hes not the same as he used to be. He thinks he always right, always perfect and should get a medal when he does one good thing hes supposed to do. He got the baby to sleep yesterday when i just wasnt in the mood, and the way he was acting like he deserved dad of the year award!
I could go on but dont want to bore people, but yeah things will be different now. I will get back to being me when I go away, and if the new me doesnt want the old him, thats his loss entirely.
Thanks for replying
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