Insecurities

hello all
ive been with my boyfriend for nearly 8 months, im badly in love with him, he calls me his princess an treats me like 1, not with buyin me stuff (i dont care if he did or didnt to be honest) but he respects me, he actually asks me if im ok an hows my day been! he is a complete diamond!

for me he is perfect an i beleive we were made for each other <3
the only problem is that i had a bad relationship 2 years ago, i was beaten, insulted, etc it was the most lowest time of my life ever! my ex used 2 tell me how fat an ugly i am! that no other man would ever want me so i stayed with him believein this, wen me an my ex broke up i went anorexic and couldnt believe id never have another boyfriend, get married have children etc..

but ive found the most perfect person for me an he makes me so happy, every problem i have he just seems to make them disappear an make me smile!... he calls me beautiful, he says he loves me etc.

with having a bad relationship b4 i started 2 hate myself, i couldnt look in the mirror i wasnt able to put make up on, an now im so insecure an i feel like im pushin my mr perfect away when i say im ugly or i could loose a few pounds! he tells me i dont but its hard to believe it..
im so lucky to have fount him an im so scared im pushing him away
please help
xxx

This is a very tough one I am afraid to say .... It happens to the best of us babe - I was in a very similar situation ..
I have found a really nice guy too, basically he is a complete joker and when he met me I was "confident & outgoing" on the surface - but as we got to know each other better and entered more into the relationship - it was apparent to myself and him , that I am quite sensitive, take things to heart, am scared SH*TLESS of rejection etc ...
Its all well pretending (as i did) that i was over confident and nothing phased me - but you cant hide from the truth...
I have found reading alot of articles about - insecutity, trust etc helps a bit...
It all stems from previous things in your life - the best advise I can give would be to go and speak to a professional - this isnt a sign of weakness - its a sign of inner stregth and it shows you want to progress in your life and not be stuck in the past
Dont let the past effect your future and this amazing guy you have found
Go and speak to some1 hun, you will be suprised how much it helps
Good Luck xx