Ouch
god babe thats horrible. I no exactly what its like still being in love with an ex. the only advice I can really give your not going to like it but . . . the fact is that whatever the reason was he is married now, and yeah it sounds like he still has some fellings for you coz you slept together but thats natural as you spent 3 years togther, hes not going to forget you immediately. if I were you just try to seperate him from your mind, coz I no when you miss and love sum1 it seems like you can't think of nething else. don't try and move on too quickly or too much but try and put him to one side for a while. go out, have fun and just see if there are any guys who take your fancy, not for a long term relationship or even for real, have a flirt and don't shy away from attention or compare others to your ex. just see if there is anyone you spark with even if its only once or one night.once you find that there are other guys consentrate more on them, yes naturally your ex will still be there on your mind and you'll miss him like hell and want him and it'll still make you cry. but gradually over time as you have fun and find other guys who like you you begin to stop feeling everything quite so strongly.
you will miss and want him, of course you will and I no what its like to not want to give up to cling to every last tiny hope but you have to force your brain and heart to allow you to move on. find a distarction for a while and see if the feeling fades, give it time, and I promise you it gets easier.
the thing is altho I no it'll be horrible to say is that he is now no longer up for grabs, hes married and he made that decision himself whatever pressures may or may not have influenced him and chance is he made it for a good reason. and I really do think that you should try and let it go coz it'll be harder for both of you if you don't. and marriage is a huge choice and not one he's likely to forget or rethink quickly however much he misses you. hes made a commitment and really you should stand back and let that go however hard it is. and it will be hard and I'm sorry Ive been so horrible.
you probably feel that i don't understand you at all, but I really really promise I do and I'm starting to get my life back having lost it for a long time since the split. and I just want to try and help you do the same. I think others will agree with me and you may as well hear it here. I'm sorry babe. big hugs. good luck
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