Lesbian? bi?

Ok here's the deal...I have a boyfriend but i keep putting off getting to sexual with him because when he gets to close to me I don't like it and divert him to other things. He's a great guy and when i look at him across the room i think...wow...sexy. And I will choose to go over him and kiss or whatever but nothing too sexual.

I've had other boyfriends (not relationships really) but only when I was a lot younger because for about three years i was in a (kinda) relationship with a girl. I loved getting close to her (you know what I mean,I'm sure)and never felt like pushing her away. It just didn't work out for other social and family related reasons.

SO the question is why do I push away a totally loveable and sexy guy who i am attracted to? And if it's becuase I'm gay or whatever...why aren't i chasing down the girls (some i'm attracted to but not enough to ask them out)

It seems bizarre to me!

Truth

Always be true to urself If u like the same sex then u should go that way just feel with ur mind as u would feel with ur heart!

Plausible that you are les,so what?

it sounds very plausible that you are les. but that is nothing to worry about. today it isn't that horrible than in former times. i think it is great because i could not imagine to be together with a guy or to get in bed with him. my last boyfriend also came too near and i felt that that wasn't that what i want. i felt something like panic and finished our relationship the next day.
lesbians also say that some guys are sexy or handsome. why is that a problem? you can say, somebody is good-looking but that needn't mean that you want to get in bed with him or her. for example i think that johnny depp looks very good, but i would like anything too sexual.
but you are right. it's not easy to talk to girls you are interested in. you need much self-confidence and courage and of course, you must be sure, that you like girls...and that's not easy....

Could be

You could be bi, and just be more attracted to girls than guys. It also could be that you've just never had a good experience with a guy in bed so you don't get turned on as much with them? I don't know but it's definitley up to you if you are bi or les. If you are les, you can think guys are attractive but not want to get in bed with them.