It'll be okay !
I know how you feel! I've had a really similar situation. even to this day i still think there's little reminders in his words and hidden meanings.. it's mind games, but usually for a cause. i always compare boyfriends to previous ones - especially ones i was deeply, and still am, in love with. i know exactly how you feel, i get the same feelings from your writing as what i would do if this was my own plea for help. do you feel jealous or angry when you hear things about him and other women? do you wonder whether you will become paranoid? do you still go 'aww' when you see photos of him? all you can do is think what went wrong in the relationship, what annoys you about him. it sounds absurd, but corner all thoughts of tenderness and despair of this lost love that you have towards him as a partner, just keep the ones of friendship e.g. sense of humour. do little things like not jumping to talk to him online. it's so hard - i know. wean yourself off him. it sometimes takes years. and you will feel that anger when he has someone else. but when someone better and perfect comes along, be prepared to fall in love again. keep your chin up hun, it will get better
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