Girl in a crisis.
If I gabble on I do apologise but I am very confused.
I have been with my boyfriend for 6 years, but it hasn't gone anywhere in all those years.
He asked me to marry him after 2 years, and of course I said yes, but 4 years after that we are stil not married and whenever I bring up the subject he tells me not to go on at him and "maybe next year." It's the same with having children, I am desperate to start a family and I thought he was too.
Over the last year or so he has gone from doing everything for me to doing absolutely nothing. He doesn't, he doesn't do anything round the house etc. I work 6 days a week and then have to come home and do everything there.
We had to move into his Grandma's house because she is becoming less able, and whilst I don't mind that I am feeling suffocated there and now he isn't working I see no way for us to get out.
He has also started to see more of his mates and drinking more. He has never hit me but when he gets drunk he gets very aggressive and argumentative. He has always had a short fuse but it seems to be getting shorter.
I have met someone at my work place. He is not at all the sort of person I would ever go for but he is really caring and considerate, he also makes me laugh. I have not and never would do anything with him whilst i am with my boyfriend, but I can't stop thinking about him and wondering what it would be like?!? I don't mean just the sex!!! I have also been told that he likes me as well, which makes it really hard for me.
My boyfriend suffers from severe depression, which isn't helped by his drinking and not working etc and he's depressed because he drinking and not working etc its one big viscious circle. I am really worried that if I were to leave he would get even worse.
I have absolutley no idea what to do, my head is a total mess. Basically I need some major advice.
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