what do i do? help me please!

my boyfriend and i had been together for 2 and a half years, we have been through so much and hes like my best friend aswell as my boyfriend, hes cheated on me a number of times, hes kissed a few girls, been texting other girls saying he loves them, wants to sleep with them etc and hes even slept with a guy.. and there just what i know for a fact! i suffer from very bad paranoia, depression and low self esteem and im constantly worried hes cheated/cheating on me. i cant seem to stop it! he says they all mean nothing but i cant help but think it does. am i not good enough? our past has been abit mad, ive had 2 abortions and weva split up i dont knwo how many times and its got to the point now where i dont even know what to do and ive even considered aking my life because of all the mess im in.
im 16 years old and hes 18, and ive got to the stage now where i dont knw wether to just leave him for good, stay friends with him, nothing more or get back with him and fight to make it work which we always try. i lost all my mates thorugh being with him and i cant talk to my family, i used to spend all my time with him and hes the only one that knows everything about me, im scared of letting him go and im jealous he will find someone else. hes been really differnent lately and ive tried speaking to him but he doesnt seem to care anymore. i went to hospital last night as i thought of taking my life and he didnt even offer to come and support me, although were not together anymore we are still too close and he just left me and went out with his mates in their cars. am i asking for too much?
i dont think i can cope without him and im scared im going to do something stupid because of it. what shall i do? has anyone been in the same position? someone please help me!!!

Hope you're okay

Your message was posted a while ago but I've only just discovered the site. You sounded so sad and confused and I hope you managed to break away. The other messages were right, nobody has the right to make another person feel so low and all women deserve to be loved and cherished. Be strong and move on. I hope you are okay. x

End it

Hi Ya,
I fell in love at 16 and my boyfriend cheated on me a few time. We split up at 19 and then got back together at 21. I though he had changed and we bought a house together at 22. He then proposed and we got married in 2006. Everything seemed great although he did have problems with money etc but I always stood by him and gave him soooo much. We planned to start a family and I fell pregnant. I Aug 08 when I was 7 months pregnant he started acting weird and put me through hell with all his lies. I thought it must be me being hormonal but when my baby was 8 weeks olf I caught him having an affair. I am now 28 and I wasted 12 years trying with someone who is compulsive liar and cheat. I love my daughter dearly and she is what keeps me going everyday. You are only 16 and you have soooo much good things ahead of you. Please don't put up with this, he knows what he is doing.

Take care sweetie.

Michelle b

Hi

Just wanted to offer u some advice ur paranoid because of him, its feeding the parania his not worth it, ur very young still enjoy ur youth dont let a man take that from u.

He obviously has no respect for u leave before u drag a child into this mess. NOONE is worth taking ur life. He enjoys the fact the he can control u and get away with what ever he wants. show him u have balls take care of urself and u will attract the right man.

ive had a child with a ,,am i dedicated my life to only to find out he doesnt love me. U know it hurts like hell but i have to move on the world will always continue so i might as well move on myself. U have strength every woman does believe in urself and u willl make it without him. Lonelyness is a dangerous thing buT EVERYONE has to go through it in life to get what they really need in the end. good luck sweet heart my prayers are with u