i am also cheating
I have known my husband for thirty six years and we have been married for thirty two years. We have three beautiful children. However, I find that during the years my love for my husband is slowing weaning. I have been trying hard after having the children to make much of myself by studying but my husband seems to just stand still during the years and do not care much about studying or learning anything new. I find it very difficult to even communicate with him as he seems to say everything in the wrong context and still do not want to learn basic English. My children are also university graduates as myself and we try to speak well hoping that this would also encourage my husband to at least learn basic English. When I met him I realised that he liked to gamble alot and I thought that with time that he would have given this up. However, as the years go by, I realised that his gambling gets worse. I seeked help for the family hoping that this would have helped him to stop gambling but instead he continued to gamble. I feel that my husband has no idea of how to treat a woman or his family. If I was not paying the mortgage, it would not have been paid if I was depending on my husband to do so. He has no idea of anything going on in the home and he has always been the same. In view of this behaviour I have started cheating on him ten years into the marriage and I have had three long term relationships while being married.I am now dating a man who I have studied law with 7 years ago - he is now a barrister. He is very nice to talk to and very encouraging to me. He is a great inspiration to me - I have now applied to do my LPC in law and all this would have not happened if I did not have this wonderful man keep pushing me.I love him very much and the sex is great. He makes me feel like a real woman. My husband take me for granted and so I am now fed up with his sex to the point where I now make many excuses not to have sex with him. I do not feel any guilt about my cheating on him. I married this man during my teens and I feel that he has wasted my time. All of the relationships that I have had so far, the men has treated me with love and respect. However, they were all married like myself and so the relationship was going no where and so it was a mutural understanding when we decided to part.I thought of divorcing my husband for many year and I even discuss this with him. When I do, he becomes very arrogant and overbearing. I actually went and saw a family law solicitor on one occasion and he calmed down a little. I then stopped everything hoping that he would have changed but he hasn't. I have helped to build everything that we now have, as a matter of fact I have been the brain behind it all. My husband do not care about these things and I now feel that if I should leave him now that I would lose quite a lot even though I might gain peace of mind. In addition, everytime I make up my mind to leave him, I realised that he would be hopeless on his own. He is useless at making any kind decisions for himself or the home apart from gambling and so I have been burdened with everything around the home and this includes DIYs. My current relationship with my barrister friend is very good and we are very much in love. I feel that if he was not in my life that my life would have been very empty.
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