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hiya guys i dont know if people still come on here but i could really do with some help. Thing is iv been with my boyfriend 9 months now and i love him so much. i am very young as i am only 17 nearly 18 but i am very mature and fr my age i have been through a lot. My ex beat me up due to be not wanting to be his slave and i also found out he had cheated and my bf before that cheated on me a hell of a lot! so therefore i really dont trust easy. When i met my bf i was a virgin as i never wanted to give something up so precious to me to just anyone i wanted to be in love first and plus i have a lot of respect for myself. So when i fell in love with my bf i believed it was time. Even after only 5 months of us being together he moved in with me and my mum due to his differences with his dad. I didnt mind as i missed him when he was away so this was chance for us to spend time toegther. However when he moved in i saw some emails he had been writing to a girl he had once slept with that were quite rude. I was heart broken and we nearlly split up but i gave him another chance because i loved him. Then not oo long ago i noticed a girl called 'lisa friend' had text his new number, when i asked where she'd got his number he said he didnt know. I believed him but then 3 days ago i find out this lisa is another girl hes been with in the past. And i found this out due to going on the computer and talking to that girl he once spoke dirty too and pretending to be him to see if he had maybe cheated. I realised he hadnt so i felt better but then she said that this lisa was missing me and that if we still talked. I then admitted to the girl that it wasnt my bf but me and she seemed shocked and said ignore what i just said. i eventually got it out of her this lisa was my bfs ex and that she was basically obsessed wit him so im sat there thinking ..........great!!! i sent lisa a message asking her if theyd been together while hes been with me and she said no and he swore to me he hadnt either n he looked me in the eyes n i do belive him......however i do not belive that he hasnt been texting her rude things like he did before as lisa said hed asked her to be his bit on the side. since being with my bf i am very jealous n i dont no why perhaps because i love him so much and iv never had anyone make me feel special due to my awful past in which involves a lot more terrible things. Its so hard imagining him doing this again to me but he does tend to lie a lot what do i do??? iv tried talking to him but he says if u dont trust me ill leave u alone but i dont want that i do love him ........n he has always treated me good but i feel like hes taking me for advantage now talking to other girls .....someone plz help me xxxxx

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just to let you know I have been on both ends of the cheating spectrum, I have been cheated on , and I have cheated. And i can honestly say be wary girls will say no they havent' done this or that just so they can get on the ggod side of the guy it builds loyalty and he will cheat with her if he knows she will be loyal and not say anything. I say if you feel he is doing something usually womens intuition is at best times write so just follow your heart and be true to yourself.

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what have you decided to do about the situation you are in, just don't be naivee.

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heya.

first things first, you are only 17 and no matter how mature you think you are for your age, you prob dont relise whats really going on. im 23 now and i ran away from home when i was 16. i had 3 horrible relationships during this time, long ones to. and never returned home to mum and dad. the point is i thought when i was 17, that i was "mature enough" i could not be more wrong. what we do when were that age and what out hearts tell us to do may be so rong and it ends up with someone getting hurt. next point is, you maye think you love your bf, and i may be wrong yes you could love your bf, but out first love is the one we think we love so much and we think we will never find anyone else again, this is great is you 100% trust your bf. but if there are doubts there, then he is given you reasons to doubt him, and lies often mean they are covern something up. so remeber love, try and be strong and sit him down, tell him whats going through your mind. if your bf is lying to you, he may well be covern something up, and im not being to sound horrible i promise, but maybe he has found away of escaping from whats going on with his dad by staying with you. he may well think he has it easy living with you. so your the boss, he is not. dont let him treat you like a foul. i was strong enough to end my first love becuse i found out he was cheatinf on me. and it was the best descion i made! xxx