Feeling guilty. please, please help me. 
My bf and I have been having a rough time lately. We have been getting in a lot of stupid little arguments that turn into big ones because of his inability to communicate. I like to talk about things and solve problems. He doesn't. This makes some things very very hard.
Anyway, one night we were fighting and he got so upset he actually said "We are over. Stop calling me. Have a nice life." He turned off his phone and wouldn't call me back all night.
That same evening a male friend (i had known for a while) of my family was at our house and I spoke with him about this. He seemed to really understand and it was nice to have someone to talk to. We stayed up late watching movies and talking.
Then he mentioned he hurt his back. I told him I could fix it through massage if he wanted. He agreed and so i gave him a back rub for a little while in an attempt to heal him. After that he seemed incredibly relaxed and looked at me with passionate eyes. Then he leaned forward and suddenly kissed me. I got caught in his heat as he pulled my closer and (regretfully) I kissed him back. Then he started rubbing and touching my body and trying to go further. I told him, "I want to, but I can't. I'm in love with him." I gave him a single kiss on the lips and went to my room after that.
The next day I spoke to my bf and he told me he couldn't live without me. He said he was madly in love and need to be with me.
I told my mum about the whole situation and she says, "What you did was wrong, however he DID break up with you. You were hurt and fed up with him. This contributed to the situation. And you told the other man to stop." She told me not to tell my bf because it will ruin out relationship (which is now stronger than ever) and it will never happen again.
I feel absolutely terrible about the kissing. Even though I stopped it before anything else happened, I feel like a cheater. It makes me feel sick. What do you guys think?
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