Yes you are normal!
We are all made up of half female, half male. AND - it is a biological fact that there is homosexual behaviour in animals. We humans have the upper hand, because - we have the power of discrimination. Consciously, you love and fancy your husband. Subconsciously, you like the idea of a woman making love to you. It doesn't necessarily mean you are gay or bisexual, just that you are having an erotic dream. It could mean that you would like your husband to be gentler in bed, sometimes. Not saying he is rough, but some men do not have that gentler touch unless you guide them. Try asking him to be soft, and slow. Play soft, sexy music. It sounds like you are straight, and faithful to your husband. He may not like another woman in bed with the pair of you - because you might actually prefer her soft touch. My guess is that you both like the idea, but the reality could put your marriage at risk, because of loyalty issues. Talk with your husband, and come to an agreement about this. More importantly, ask yourself (and be honest with yourself), whether you just enjoy the dreams, and find it sexy to share the fantasy element with him, or whether you are prepared to risk your marriage to indulge your (and/ or his) fantasies with a real person. Men love to watch lesbian porn, and so do some women. I find it sexy when it's done well (most porn is badly lit and has no great storyline). Personally, though, I wouldn't want to sleep with a girl, but the idea is sexy to me. But that is me. Have this conversation with yourself, and do not be afraid of your sexuality. Sex is a pleasurable pastime! Just try to know yourself, and be confident about yourself. It isn't sinful to have fantasies, and you don't have to share them unless YOU want to. Good luck. Keep in touch if you would like to.
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