Jesus!! was not expecting that

I dont know if some of you remember me saying i wasnt scared? Well I had my BA 2days ago,daycase (would recommend as the next day is more discomfort to travel) anyway.... i shocked everyone after,i didnt look or feel like i had done it (apart from the two big bumps),i felt brillent! i had visitors when i got home and never went to bed (just sat up on the sofa all day resting) and the same yesterday,i didnt feel i over done it at all.
I hadnt slept properly for three days,but still felt ok'ish....BUT THEN LAST NIGHT
I had a major panick attack!! i was soooo scared,i even said "what have i done to myself" i was shakeing and sweeting and couldnt control myself for about 15mins.
I think it was then it hit me that what ive gone through was a big thing??

I now know why (it was my fault)
For 10 years i didnt care about the pain it was going to happen no matter what. I had my heart set on it.
I want to tell you also,im not a medicine taker,after years of depression,migrains/headaches,tooth ache...etc,i still wouldnt take tablets....purly because im a baby! couldnt swollow them! (even the pill!!)
Because i knew how important it was to take the pills after,i just did it,it was hard but i was swollowing them ok. I was told 1 to 2 tablets,so i chose to take the 1!!
but because on my first night i woke up 5am in discomfort i thought if i take two painkillers lastnight plus an extra muscle relax (you also get others too) i might sleep better...
I took to much for my body to take,i started i to feel confused,i felt worried,i worried about the sweltch noise i heard in my new boobs, i worried if i wasnt sitting properly, if i needed bandage or bra, i even thought i messed up by have 3drags on a fag! ( ive smoked 15 a day for 13years and had nothing for 3days!...was needing it)

My partner was great,he told me i was ok,it was in my mind,and reminded me how i was still getting over the anetsetic (how ever you spell it lol) i obviously took to much for my body to take and you girls had also said the farty nosies are normal.
I went to sleep,and slept most of today.....i got to say,im so much better,ive been resting all day and aloud myself a few puffs on a fag.

I suppose i wanted to share this incase anyone has the blues after too....it is normal to feel scared,and yes it really really does get better. I went to visit nurse,she checked me over and said im doing really well,so now off the painkillers and just taking the antibiotics and mucle relax (not at the same time) I didnt mean to write so much,but my point is,there is a light at the end of the tunnel!! even when your feeling your worst,remember its not for long x

Thanks for sharing this

I felt weird the next day on the way home, was getting tearful and a bit confused. Its really helpful to see what other people have been thru.

Hiya

thanks for posting that hun, and i really hope you're feeling much better now. I guess it could be a bit like the '3 day blues' after you've had a baby. Its a big adjustment for your body, and all of a sudden it hits you! Time is a great healer.
Take care and big hug xx

Hiya

Ahh sorry to hear you've had a rough time hun, a panic attack eh, I hope your alright now. It is a huge deal getting this op done and it put's out body though a hell of alot. It will all be worth it though hun, and I had my down day yesterday but am feeling alot better today.

Thinking of you & happy healing

Gina xx

i rekon it's the lack of smoking thats making u feel panicky. i can imagine how crappy u r feeling having the op and not being able to smoke, afterall smoking is ur copping mechanisim(sp) so without that ur lost! i guess im lucky i managed 2 give up smoking about 4 month ago so my body no longer relies on it (although i still miss it) so im sure u will be feeling better soon,either because u start smoking again or because ur body starts 2 manage without cigs.

i hope u do feel better soon

Hiya

Glad to hear you are ok now. I gave myself a panic attack after my op, about 3 days after. I was worrying about everything, including worrying about having no pain and thinking my boobs would be numb forever. But it was all the GA messing with my head. Like you I was wide awake and fine after my op. I think I'd built it up to be this big scary and painful thing. But when it wasn't I worked myself up so much thinking things were bound to go wrong as I was having things too easy. Well done on not smoking for 3 days. Wish I had given up.

Wow !!

Hi clairebear thanks for taking the time to write your post. That's what I love about this site, eveyone shares their experiences which is so helpful to newbies and those waiting for thier BAs.

I hope that you are feeling much better now, sounds like you've had quite a shock, hope that ur not having any regrets hon.

I have to admit the pain is one of my biggest dreads. I've waiting sooooo long for this.

Take good care and please keep posting the updates, much appreciated.

Mel xx

No regrets at all

and the pain is barable hun,honest x