ok so last month we had no joy, so here we go again LOL

15th month trying, me and OH going for tests this month (gulp) fingers crossed for those

I have a holiday to look forward to at the end of this cycle if it doesn't happen again but think positive it will happen

Ok cd 1 af arrived and actually wasn't that bad didn't give me ne cramps she must've felt sorry for me! LOL yh right! Temp 36.6



Cd 2 slept like an absolute log last night forgot to do temp

Cd 3 got plastered last night was great!! Really needed it feel better after the blow out ready to take the bull by the horns and start again!!

Cd 4 temp 36.5 af has left the building yippee! Can have a practice now for fun not coz we have to yey!!

Back to wishing my life away now LOL

Please try and relax this month, forget temping and doing whatever I am your body is under too much strain xx
let it happen naturally just chill out and have more fun xxx

i really wish i could just chill out and go with the flow but i cant!! lol it has eaten me up and there is nothing i can do!

Going on holiday this month so hopefully that will chill me out then i ov as soon as i get back so lots of BD, not going away with OH so will miss each other so will have some making up to do

I'm sure the time will come when i have had enough and i take a step back from all this but for the time being i just want it so bad, as i know we all do and i have to give it my all, thanks for your message, will try to not get so obsessed but i just cant see it somehow lol

good luck

xxx

Jojo, what's the rush! Myyyy goodness, this is your second diary? Wait for us,.... lol. Just joking.

Anyway, I hope this is your last one on here. xxx

always in a hurry!! i do everything at 100 miles per hour

XX

Just came to have a moan to myself!! oh has really p no f****d me off!!!!!!!!! came in from work and he wasnt here so rang him and he is up the pub celebrating someone else having a baby ( for me and for them ) we both made the joint decision to give up alcohol and see if that helps us ttc the decision was made saturday and he has broken it already i am so angry!! And so now we have had a row and he has a habit of doing a disappearing act if we row while he is drunk he disappears to his dads flat til he knows i am at work then comes in!! I hate him at this moment in time he is so selfish we will never have a baby of our own at this rate, he is a sulker too so when he finally decides to come home we wont speak for days and its nearly time to start the dancing off not that i feel like going ne where near him i feel like smacking him one ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!-!!!!! why do we have to need men for this i would much rather do it on my own, i think my oh is the most selfish man i have ever known!!! i am too good to him well no more mrs nice guy from now on!!

Moan over feel a teeny tiny bit better feel like smashing something but i wont i will count to 10 1 2 3 ...........................

Once, long long ago, something simillar hapend to me. So I tripped my DH. I bought prego test and made it positive - with red pen lol. Than I handed it to ma DH in the most unconvinient moment. He got soooo excited and happy. After he made all plans to future and so on, I told him the truth. He was sooo guthed and ungry. He thought I was unreasonable and cruel.
So I told him, not to take things progranted. One second you have your dream in front of you, and then it's suddenly gone. I told him that if we can not pull together, we shall pull separatly.
Also I told him, that if he wants to EVER fell taht extiement from seeng BFP, he needs to make more effort.
IT DID THE TRICK!!!
Just do not give up. It is hard, I know, and men do not feel the same way about this. Just stay focused, relax and calm down. Welcome him with smile and light tuch. Then after you've BD, show him who is the boss....lol. No, just joking.
Hang in there. If it is not ment, it will not happen for what ever reason. All the very best to you. xxx

thanks for the message, my oh makes out he wants it as much as i do but he cant do if he's up the pub at the slightest little excuse.

I've locked the doors ne way so if by ne chance he does come home (which i'm sure he wont) he cant get in and it's cold tonight!! lol (evil cackle) hehehe

Thanks that made me smile ne way am just trying to think up a way to get revenge lol

Jo xxx

I feel sorry for him already. But tht's the attitude. You go girl!!! Good luck.

bloody men, they can never give up the booze, I got mine off caffiene but never managed to get him to stop the drink about two days he lasted, so I feel for you but try not to kill him you will need him for action in a couple of days ha ha x

he drives me mad, i really fancied a beer yesterday but thought no better not as we are really gonna go for it this month and he has ruined it already 2 days after the agreement was made! I suppose it'll b my fault too for ringing him and starting a row!!!!! MEN!! cant live with them cant live without them, well i feel like i definately could live without him at the mo!!!

x

temp 36.5 af gone now, no sign of sad, pathetic p***k that is oh! Y r men so predictable? I'm so angry I am fantasising about hurting him!! I moved his bed out of our bedroom (we sleep in single beds) don't think there will b a bfp for me this month could do wiv a new bloke now I have to go to work all wound up!! I hate men today

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hope you're too wound up at work. Did OH stay at his dad's last night then?
Its a pain when they ... up all the planning and charting that we do and think about - they only have one job to do, thats get their little wrigglies in the right place (oo er missus!) at the right time. The rest is plain sailing for them, its us that have 9 mths of change and stuff to go through, and lets not even get started on giving birth!!

let us know how things turn out xxx lea xxx

ive just got in and he's home he's ignoring me!! LOL!!! I am ignoring him too, work was good took my mind off him, I haven't found out where he was yet but it will have been his dads he always goes there! So I look forward to a row tomorrow!! He always sulks for a day first so predictable!

He did It a few months ago at the time we should've been bd around ov and I was so angry I pushed him ive never ever touched him b 4 when ive been angry but I couldn't help it this ttc eats u up u only get 12 tries each yr if ur lucky so u need to make the most of every one I just get so angry when one gets wasted! I'm not getting ne younger and it's not easy getting pg!!

Thanks for ur message feeling less stressed now but still annoyed

Good luck

Jo xxx

my sister has just told me she is moving away i cant stop crying, we are so close and i have just started really bonding with my gorgeous little neice who is 18 months, i know i am being so selfish as its her life but i will never see them i dont know what i'm going to do with out them i really need a cuddle and am still not talking to oh.

Have been reading peoples posts on here too and am sobbing feeling their pain with m/c's why is life so unfair? it just seems like it gets harder and harder the older you get think i'm just going to go to bed and start a new day tomorrow hopefully that'll bring something a little nicer than the last 2 days

xx

A humungous big cyber hug from me coming your way xx I'm sure if you get the email going with your sis & a web cam to see your niece it'll feel a bit more like they're near.

MEN don't even get me started..not too sure if me & dp are speaking, you could cut the atmosphere with a knife at the mo. Just made him a b'day pressie to clear the air.

I hope you & dp get it all out & kiss & make up.

tc xx

hope u and dp work things out, going to go to bed and hope i feel better in the morning,

night night thanks again xxxxx

still not talking to oh so haven't bothered doing temps can't see the point, cried all morning yest bout my sis moving away I am so so gutted I always thought our children would grow up together, go to school together its such a massive shock I'm starting to come to terms wiv it I'll just really miss them. At least its taken my mind off oh who is being so pathetic and acting like I'm the 1 that's in the wrong so I'm just letting him get in wiv it, went out wiv my cousin last night had a few beers, a moan, a giggle and a bag of chips was just what I needed as I'm feeling much better today, this is not really a ttc this month LOL but never mind

Xxx

"Oh "

sad to hear about your sis - is she moving far away? Will it be poss for lots of visits? Hope you and OH sort things soon. I'm in similar situation actually, had big bust up at wkend, but it was all my fault. So we haven't BD'ed since the row and it was when I was ov too. hmmm not going great this month is it? Hope everyone in general on this forum gets more lucky and happy soon!
xx lea xx

there does seem to b something in the air doesn't there! Hope u get things sorted out soon Hun its so frustrating when a month gets wasted

My sis isn't going too far we can get there in a couple of hours its just I always thought our children would grow up together and go to the same schools like we did wiv our cousins I know I'm being selfish it was just such a shock and I will just really miss them, no matter how much we travel to see each other it wont b the same as living round the corner, but I'm starting to get used to the idea. She's going to live in the same street as her mother in law and sister in law!!! Rather her than me haha.

Hopefully things can only get better for everyone, this month has started really sad for lots of people hopefully there's happier times round the corner xxx

Jo xxx

omg what a wk!!! Didn't start talking to oh til sat night when we had a huge barney!! But cleared the cobwebs and we r talking now but he's been having some major family problems and his little sister is coming to stay wiv us for a while, she's 15, I'm really looking forward to her staying but have to admit my 1st thought was "omg what if she's in and we need to bd" selfish!! Why does it have to b so hard to fall pg??

Oh well hopefully nature will take its course so I'm cd11 today creamy cm, expecting to ov fri or sat so fingers crossed we get time for a few quickies LOL

So glad we're talking now it was a horrible week, am also really pleased for my sister now she has made the right decision although I'll still miss her we will make more if an effort to visit each other. Was just a shock and with everything else couldn't cope! LOL

Tc and good luck everyone ive missed u all haven't been on here all wk end feels like months!! Xxx

well I'm abandoning this diary as I ov'd early I think on cd 14 and we only managed to bd yesterday and that was late when oh little sister went out so there's no chance for us this month so gonna go on my holiday at the beginning of April and start again next cycle

Had no ewcm this month had a tiny amount of watery yesterday and ov pains on cd14 and my temp was 36.2 cd14 then went up to 36.5 cd 15. So never mind better luck next time I have a test this week ne way so at least I will b able to just concentrate on that. Good luck to everyone else x

Jo xxx