Hi guys

Sorry, please feel free to ignore me, I just need to rant!!!

A friend of mine got pg after 2 mths of TTC and has a 3 yr old, anyhow, she has just started TTC again and has got pg again after 2 mths of TTC. She knows about my miscarriages and how desperate I am for another one but I can tell she took great pleasure in telling me the other day. She's just found out. Then saw her again today for about 5 mins and the first thing she said about was her being pg and how happy she is and how difficult it was for her to tell me! Well, why tell me this soon then! I really don't want to talk about it as I'm feeling really gutted at the mo. They have "5 yr plan" and everything works out fine and to be honest, I'm just not in the mood to be happy for her. But that makes me feel bad because she isn't a bad person.

I think its made worse by the fact that my DH told me that he doesn't want another baby yet afterall - arrrrggghhhh!!!! I'm seriously considering whether I'm with the right bloke if we don't want the same things!

Sorry, just feel like I wanna have a huge cry! I think I might need to drown my sorrows with a bottle of wine!!

Sorry for being a miserable moobag.

xx

some people are sooo insensitive, one of my freinds asks me to babysit to practice, which i regularly avoid, they have no clue that we dont want to look aftr there children we want our OWN!!! soo frustrating, and you are definitely NOT a miserable moobag, take care and enjoy the wine, rach xxxxx

i know exactly how you feel. One of our friends announced their pregnancy a few months ago and invited me and my oh out with all our friends to announce it...hello, how insensitive? Luckily i already had plans so was spared what would've been an awful experience. We are not close friends, it's more that our ohs are mates but i am so angry with her (i hate her!!) and it's totally unjustified, she's a lovely girl. But it was a total surprise and i'm angry, it should be me (i m/c last nov).
My oh also doesn't want kids and over the last few years we've had so many disagreements over it. Otherwise our relationship is perfect and it's just so hard that the one thing we don't agree on is something with no compromise. Anyhow, he agreed last may and by Sept i was pregnant but lost it in nov. He since then said he changed his mind again and i lost it massively (normally very placid person and hate a drama) but god, men are so stupid. He's now agreed again but doesn't like talking about actually trying, just thinks if we have sex with out contraception then it will happen, he has no clue about ovulation or anything so i get all stressed, thinking about that small window of opportunity...ahh panic.
Anyway hon, god, sorry to go on...!! Just wanted you to know you are not alone. Enjoy your wine x x x

(((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))))))

Have you talked to dp to tell him how you feel? Cliche question I know, soz. It's awful when things seem to turn on their ass. Like you say, have a glass or two (or 3 or 4) of wine, sleep on it & hopefully thing that you may want to say to dp will be a lot clearer tomorrow.

tc xxxxxxx