August 4th

Hi All

I am posting this here as I am strugging to tak about it to dh. As the title suggests....August 4th....a year ago since we lost our first baby to miscarriage.

I feel more distraught now then when we were losing it. I thought I would have felt bad around the time the babies would have been due but that came and went...it is now I am feeling it. Also I am going to be cd13 of this cycle and so it means we are right in the fertile time for this cycle,should ov in the next day or so.

Also we go in on August 18th to get the results from our blood tests. That makes me feel sick as well. It may show something,something that can be corrected.....it may show something that cnanot and it means then our journey is over. Also if it shows nothing then how long to continue and put ourselves through it will become the topic.

It is not going to be an easy few weeks.

Nicki x

Any advice?

Hi, I am so sorry to hear your stories. We are going through something similar. I suffered froma missed miscarriage in Feb (I was 6 weeks when the baby died, but only found out at the 12 week scan). I fell pregnant again in June and asked the doctor for an early scan. After alot of persuading, they booked me in, but at the secind scan they said the baby wasn't developping as well as they had hoped. I have had a very long cycle since the d and c so hoped it was down to them getting my dates wrong as I was also told that they always go on a 28 day cycle. We went for the scan on Friday to be told it had only grown 1mm in two weeks and that there was some clotting around the sac. We have been told to wait for nature to take it's course which is really hard. I was wondering if anyone knew how long this should take? I don't know how long I can take it, or whether to have another d and c done. Like a lot of people on here, I was told they wouldn't do any tests until the third one which is very painful and petrifying. I am so worried we will never have a healthy pregnancy. Any advice?? xx

Hi hun!

I know how you will be feeling. One in the fact that you are losing another baby but also in the fact it is so fustrating knowing that they won't do anything until it has happened again!

We get our blood results next Monday and I am dreading it,but even when we went for the initial talk we were told to keep trying as it could still be down to bad luck!

As you had a d&c in February it is probably why they have said to let nature take its course. When they do a d&c it take some of your womb lining and it takes a while to repair itself. I am sure though they will do what is needed if they have too. I had a d&c the second time because there was clotting around the baby and I had already lost alot of blood.

Take care x x

Thank you

A huge thank you to you all!

I just needed to vent and it is easier to do it here....

The strange thing is I thought dh hadn't thought about it yet he had and was feeling totally hopeless....didn't know what to say or do! I felt guilty for feeling as if it was only me. We have had a good talk and I feel much better.

I am still anxious regarding the 18th,but we just have to get to the date and hope and pray that we do get an answer....even if at the end of the day it isn't the answer we want!

Again thank you all

Nicki x

Oh hun

its sooo horrible. on the anniversary of my 1st ectopic i have a walk on the beach and i talk to him/her. i tell them how much mummy misses them and wishes they were here. OH knows where i go but i think men deal with things differently. on my 1st ectopic loss i was PG with DS when my due date would have been so i think i dealt with that 1 ok. we also bought a wee house plant as a kind of memorial to the baby, could u do something like that?

try not to worry about the results, just take it 1 day at a time. remember we're always here if u need to rant.

tc, gail xx

Hi

so sory to hear of ur loss i no how u feel i had a medical termination in april and still find it soo hard to cope with and desperate for another child . fingas crossed hun for u and hope u get what uve been waiting for. jenxxxx ps were all hear to help and thanku to everyone whos helped me

((((((hug))))))))

Hi Nicki

I have recently been through the same feelings and couldn't talk to my DH (he didn't even remember!) but mine was to do with due date of my baby. I was due on 29 July and miscarried at 11ks in Jan 08 (having seen the heartbeat at 6wks). I was obviously devastated at the time and unfortunately it was no easier even though that was my 2nd m/c but all those feelings came back in the week or so leading up to my "due date". It was awful as I remembered but no one else did! I could cry just thinking about it now but I'm not sure why! I'm really really lucky as I have a 3yr old DS (born in between the two m/c) but he keeps asking for a sibling and it's taking so long to conceive and then to have miscarriage is just icing on the cake! I'm booked in for hysteroscopy in Sept so can't wait for answers (but would secretly like to get BFP before then TBH!).

Results of the blood tests must be difficult too. I've just had some for antibodies and clotting when pg. Even though you dread what they will tell you, it's good to have answers as your in limbo until then and no plan of action can happen until then - I'm sure all will be okay whatever the outcome. Best of luck to you.

Here's to an extra sticky BFP for you real soon.

Take care
Bea x

Hey Nicki,

I can totally understand what you are saying I had a medical termination on the 14th Aug last year and delivered my baby on the 16th so I am totally dreading that day coming around. At the time I really thought "This time next year everything will be different I'll either be pregnant or maybe even have a baby if I had fallen straight away" Well a year has passed and still no BFP and things just seem to be getting harder. Back to the gyne in sept for my endro but fingers crossed we get our BFPs soon.

If you ever need anyone to talk to just pm me.

Take Care and I've got everything crossed for you

Ashley x

Hiya......

oh i'm so sorry to hear about your M/C i had one on 4th of November last year, and i am dreading it coing around to that date and me still not getting my BFP.i was 12 weeks when i lost baby went to the scan and there was no heartbeat(missed miscarriage) and it was due in May, that has been and gone now and it was a really sad time for us both and i still think today IF he/she was here they would be 2 months and so many days, and i need to move on and stop dwellin on it so much but i don't think i will untill i get my BFP.
just keep your chin up and keep BD'ing during the fertile time and i really really hope you get it this time, sounds like you've had a real bad time with TTC , i didn't think it would be such a long hard road to go down but i was so so wrong. i really would also highly reccomend going to see an acupuncturist and also chinese medicine, i really think that they help. most consultations are free so even if you go and have a chat with them and see what they can reccommend for you. because even when i went for my initial chat it ,ade me feel better inside, like i was doing something positive.
but good luck and i know its not easy.
oh... also maybe try booking an odd night or two away with your DH gives you something to look forward to and maybe book a mini break during fertile time, i try all these things to try to occupy my mind but it always trails back to TTC!!!!


take care

sarah
xxxxx