I'm writing because I've been through something really horrible. I'm feeling really distressed at the moment and I want to know I'm not the only person in the world who's been through this...

Back in April (07) I had a natural miscarriage but I wasn't offered any aftercare or a follow up scan and was just left to deal with it.

My partner and I tried for another baby and within a month I was pregnant again and absolutely thrilled! As I'd had a miscarriage they sent me for my dating scan a bit early, at 10 weeks. Unfortunately they told us the baby didn't have a heartbeat and had died at about 8 weeks. As I had no signs at all of a natural miscarriage (and I still felt very pregnant) I opted for the d&c procedure in the hope it would all be over very soon.

So I had the procedure and it went really well. I didn't bleed....until 4 days later when it came on! Very heavy and so painful I could hardly move! After a week of this I went back to the doctors. They gave me antibiotics for a bladder infection. A week later and nothing had changed. I went back again and they gave me medication for Irritable Bowel Syndrome (???) instead. At no point had I been offered a scan to check there was no tissue left inside me.

In the third week the bleeding slowed but the pain was still there. Then, one Friday evening, when I was supposed to me going out with my friends, I started to feel contraction type pains that had me doubled over. I couldn't move, sit, stand or eat! But yet the bleeding was minimal. I felt like I just needed to have a huge bleed and let it all out!

So after an hour I phoned NHS Direct. No help. Then I phoned the Doctors on Call at my local hospital. Very unsympathetic and no help at all! They didn't believe how much pain I was in despite the fact that I was crying down the phone.

The only thing I could think to do to relief the pain was to have a really hot bath. I stood up to run the bath and then I felt as if I was going to bleed so I sat back on the toilet. A huge gush of blood came out of me closly followed by some huge sort of clot that splashed in the water and more gushes of blood.

I stood up shocked and the pain was gone. Completely! It sounds gross but I was curious and fished around in the loo for what had come out of me. I found it and washed it off in the bath. To my horror, the "thing" that had come out of me was a baby! I could see it's head, it's eyes, it's nose, it's arms and even little stumps for hands! It was the most horrifying thing I've ever seen!

Eventually my partner got home from work and I had phoned my mum to come and help me. She phoned the Doctors on Call and they said I needed to come down immediately and bring the "thing" with me.

So I was taken into hospital and they confirmed it was a baby. About 5-6 cm long. After the d&c they told me they had retrieved a baby about 2cm long.

So how has this happened? How can they get a baby out of me at 2cm and then I naturally miscarry a baby that was 6cm long?! Was it twins and one survived longer than the other? Did they really get the baby out of me in the first place?? I just hate the not-knowing!

Has anyone ever heard a story like this?! And more importantly, has anyone got any answers for me??

Please help,
Claire

your story made me cry I'm so sorry you've had to go thru this. Wish I could offer you some constructive advice but I've never been thru anything this horrific. I've had 3 m/c's but they've all happened naturally so hope someone out there can answer your questions. Think you need to speak to the hospital again tho, suspect they're the only people who can tell you for sure what happened. I can only imagine what you must be going thru and feel awful I can't help more but am here if you need a sympathetic ear.

Love, Clare xxx

Hi Clare,

Thanks for your response. I am thinking about writing a letter to the hospital to find out if there is any result from my d&c. Did they actually remove a baby? Or was it just tissue? If it was a baby how can they explain the baby that I miscarried this week?? If it was twins, why wasn't the second baby picked up? etc etc...

There's so many questions and the worst thing is I don't think I'll ever know the answers!

Lets just hope I can go full term one day and put all this behind me!

Thanks,
Claire

think the letter's a really good idea, it's not right that they've left you with so many questions. It makes me really angry that they haven't followed this up properly and made sure you had all the information they could give you. Know how hard it is to move on when you're not even sure what exactly has happened.

Can't do any more than listen, wish I could, but am here anytime if you need to chat.

Lotsa love, Clare xxx

i have just read your letter and i am so shocked. i cannot believe this has happened to you and how the doctors just turn a blind eye!

I really hope that you get some answers from the hospital as you truly deserve them.

Once again i am so sorry for your loss.

kate x