we havent spoken before but i have seen your posts on both this forum and over on the expecting one.

i was so sorry to hear about your little angel. i just wanted to send your a big hug and tell you that we are all thinking of you.

love kelly.
xxx

Hi there all,

As some of you may know I had a stillbirth of my son James Peter on 25th September 2007.

I am just having a really hard day today. I just keep seeing babies everywhere I go and thinking how I should be holding mine in my arms.

I just cant stop crying today, I am even crying now. Feeling so low and down I am not sure whether I want to carry on right now or what to do.

Have been feeling reaaly strong and trying to help others and focus. But now I just want to run and hide.

Thank you so letting me rant on like this, it helps to let it all out, and thats what I am doing!

Big Hugs,
Natalie xxx

Hi there,

Just wanted to say a big thank you to all of you for your continued support which is really helping me. Some days seem to be better than others, and sometimes I just cant stop crying.

I am hoping to find a job now, as I feel time is right. Have applied to 7 places so far and have an interview with a top job agency tomorrow at 10am so wish me luck!

I think it might be a while till I try again, as I just want to get my life back on track and time to get over this and to heal.

I know it sounds crazy but I feel I have let Baby James down in some way as I couldnt bring him into the world. I just feel so guilty, and sad especially when I see other babies and I imagine what it would have been like with my baby.

Thank you all so much again, you are really helping me through this and making me realise I am not alone. I've heard from so many other people saying they know some one or have been through a similar situation so I am glad in a way I am not the only one, though I would not wish this on any one.

Take care, Big Hugs & God Bless,
Natalie xxxx

Nat

I don't really know what to say only that I felt I had to reply if only to let you know that there are people who care so hang on. The only thing you can do is live each day as it comes, one at a time. If you feel like crying then cry, if you feel like screaming then scream, do WHATEVER it takes to get you through the day.

You'll have your day, I feel it. The world's a better place having you in it so stick in kiddo.....n talk if you need to.

lol

L xxx

Just wanted to say good luck for tomorrow. You have not let down Baby James, it was out of your controll so please dont think like that.
Will be thinking about you the morns morning, good luck and lots of big hugs and loves
Lis x

Just wanted to say thank you all who have left me messages.
Having a much better day today.

Its silly things that set me off, like seeing babies in prams crying or hearing that someone I dont even know has just died or gone into hospital .

Its been a just over a month since it happened and I have only just stopped bleeding, and yesterday I had terrible lower abdominal pains for about and hour. Thankfully I have stopped leaking milk, but wow what your body goes though after child birth...

Just wish I had a baby at the end of it all to show it was all worth it!

Anyway thats enough of me raving on....

Take care & Big Hugs,
Natalie xxx

I'm so scared about this happening to me. NO ONE derserves it. It's the most awful thing that could happen, so why did it happen to a nice lady like you? I really want things to get better for you.
I don't know if i'm making anything better for you. I want to be your friend when you're in need. My heart goes out to you. I don't know how hard it is, but i know that your baby doesn't want you to be sad.
Huge Hugs. xx

Thank you so much for all your messages.

I guess its just really sinking home whats happened. I have been caught up in a whirlwind of things recently and its been keeping me busy.

On its back to the real world now, I am starting to look for work again and clearing stuff away in the nursery and it just really hit me. It all just seems so unfair that I went through the whole 40 weeks plus another 7 days over due and not to have my baby in my arms at the end of it.

I am seeing so many babies and pushchairs around and I just cant help wanting to cry or run away. Before it just didnt effect me somehow.

Thank you so much for all your support, it really does mean alot to me.

Big Hugs to you all,
Natalie xxxx

Hey Natalie, you have been so strong and brave throughout. I know I couldn't do it. You are such an amazing person, and of course you will have a bad day but I know you will get through this because of the sort of amazing person you are.

I don't know how your feeling but if you feel like you need to talk please get in contact.

Take care
Toni xxxxx

You have done so well hun, you are more than entitled to have a bad day after what you have been through.

You are one brave lady.


My thoughts are with you and your husband, and of course your angel.

Love and hugs

kate xxxx

Hey

As everyone else has said it's completely natural to feel this way, I'm amazed at how strong you have been so far, everyone has such admiration, respect and heart felt thoughts for you. A good cry can work wonders, let it out, talk to people and know that you are not alone.

You know we are all here for you to talk to or private message and if there is anything we can say do or to help just say the word.

Much Love
Donna. x

I have always read your post and you have been a fantastic help.

I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and your partner, and little JAmes Peter.

Please take etra special care of yourself and partner.

With much love
Zoe xxx

Heya Natalie,

*hugs* you are doing so amazingly well and i have nothing but respect and admiration for you you are entitled to have off days no one can blame you for that and we are all here for you if you ever need to get things off your chest,

I have no idea how hard it must be for you but my husband lost his 2 year old son and i know how hard it was for him.

I really hope you can heal after such a traumatic event.

much love always
Leitia xx

hello chicky, thought i told you to email me if you needed a chat hey! you know me, im at home all the time. its really normal to feel like this hun you've lost someone so precious, i cant believe how well you've coped already but as i said at the beginning you really do need to give yourself time to grieve. you are allowed to cry and it is normal so just let it out...i still cry about what happened to you! dont bottle things up cos it'll seem a million times worse. have you spoken to your mum this week cos you always seem much happier when you have spent time together? keep talking hun and keep that chin up chicky, you're a very brave and special person, sending a million hugs and kisses to you x x x x x x x x x

we havent spoken before but i have seen your posts on both this forum and over on the expecting one.

i was so sorry to hear about your little angel. i just wanted to send your a big hug and tell you that we are all thinking of you.

love kelly.
xxx

I have never spoke to you before but have read you threads on the expecting and this one. Just really want to give you a net hug and say i am thinking of you.
I had a mc on the 9th of august and i am still getting the odd bad day when you see a baby or someone pregnant and just want to cry. Dont run away and hide, this lot on here would miss you.
Thinking of you
Lisa

I can't even begin to know what you are going through, but please know that we are all thinking of you at this time. You are strong, and he will always be with you.

Take care, Em x