I was so determined not to come here as last time i found out i was pregnant i was excited and did everything and lost the baby at 6 weeks. But im so worried and talking to my husband is pointless as all he says is youve lost 2 babies this is your time, its a nice thought but there are people who lose 12 it doesnt help me at all.Im pregnant im miles from home in south africa and im terrified. I have lost one baby to ectopic and im so scared thatll happen again and that scares me more as its dangerous to my life. I cant even get a scan here as its too early and they dont have the internal scan i had when i was in UK. I really dont want to be waiting here for it to rupture and be rushed into hospital im in a no win situation. Im coming home in 3 weeks and by that time it could well be too late. And even if thats fine im so scared im going to miscarry again. It never ends. To be honest im surprised im even pregnant. I dont have any symptoms and something just doesnt feel right i dont feel good about this baby at all im getting pains on the left side of my body, ive got no breast swelling or tenderness, nothing. The way im feeling its like the way id feel before id get my AF and thats why im convinced im going to lose this baby. I want to be positive but women know their bodies and i know mine. I knew last time and now i know this time. Im so scared. This time ive solidly refused to tell a soul only my husband ive forbidden him telling his mother until a point we know its all fine.Pregnancy is meant to be a time of joy but going through this kind of thing makes that positive test just plain scary. Ive told him if i lose this baby i dont know if i want to try again i cant be dealing with the stress every time. Im being extra careful this time around and hope against hope third time is lucky for us.

I really feel for you. When I found out I was pregnant this time I practically ignored it until I got to 12 weeks as I knew I couldn't face another m/c - it was so hard but I forced myself not to think about it as stress is so bad for your unborn.

Anyway, I'm now 17 + 4 and everything is fine

Easier said than done but try to relax, if it's meant to be it will be

Lisa

Yeah thats what im doing i refuse to get attached even though i did go and see what my due date will be i couldnt resist but right now im not even accepting im pregnant, and its easy to do as i dont have any sickness, loss of appetite, im a little more tired than usual and boobs as always getting huge, but that makes me feel even more like its not going to work out. Maybe if i was throwing up every morning id feel different. But so true what will be will be. Thanks for words of advise.