Just want to tell someone

I've decided to post this as I need to tell someone but can't tell anyone I know! I've just just found out that I'm pregnant again and whilst so excited am so pessimistic as this will be my 3rd pregnancy and with 2 miscarriages behind me cannot let myself get excited! Well I did have about 5mins with each pregnancy test kit!

Only 2wks and my head is split in 2! One half says yipppee the other half says don't get excited as it'll only happen again! I went round to my boyfriends today but just couldn't bring myself to tell him! He moved out about 2mths ago and we are trying to patch things up so this was an accident but one I had wanted to have since my last miscarriage! If I tell him then will it make things worse between us? If I do lose it then nobody will know so I can go on like nothing had happend! But it don't care if I manage to keep hold of it then it can be me and my baby against the world! God I'm mixed up and to make matters worse I'm really tired and cold with sore boobs! Worse than PMT this hahahahaha

Thank you! Don't know if anybody has read this but it feels better getting it off my chest!

Thank you

Thank you so much for listening and replying it means a lot, it hurts so much doesn ... I am actually feelling quite calm about it now and have cut down on the gym, probably because I have been so knackered! I was supposed to be going to alton towers on Tuesday for my friends birthday but have decided to tell her I'm going, she will be upset but I really don't want to take any chances! I will probably say I have an ear infection, I hate lying but am paranoid about telling anyone as you well know its a case of being stuck between the devil and the deep blue sea! The first mc was at 13wks and the second was at 8wks so I am going to just treat each week a step at a time!
thank you both so very much xx

Hi

Congratulations on the pregnancy.
I understand how your feeling about being pregnant. I have recently found out that i am pregnant again so soon after a mc im so excited but feel i cant tell anyone. I think that it is understandable to feel worried about having to go through it all again. And your mind works over time. All i can say is try to relax to help the baba, and try and put ur mind to other things (hard i know) but that has really helped me get through the last few weeks.
Have you been to the docs yet? They may be able to send you for an early scan?
Also you should really tell your boyfriend as he will be able to be there to support you what ever happens.
Good luck and i really hope it works out for you xx

Hey hunny

i hope your doing ok, i am very pleased for you that you are pregnant again and sorry about the mc's i know how horrible they can be having had 3 myself and it haunts me everyday i hate it
but hopefully this lil one would stick about for 9 months fingers crossed for you.... i would tell your bf hunny he will be happy for you and also can be there for you when you are worrying etc
let me know how it goes xxx