I am 21 years old. My mom has been fighting lung cancer for 2 years, and it has spread through her body. She comes home from the hospital tomorrow to stay at home with hospice care. The doctors have told us they seem a possible 3 more weeks for her to be with us. I found out two days ago that I am pregnant. Two home pregnancy tests confirmed. I told my boyfriend last night. He is 20. He was upset, but not angry, and said he was not ready to hae a child. He insisted that he loved me, and wanted to some day share having a child with me but that the time is not right for us. We both work full time jobs that pay decent, and I have a very supportive family so I know finacially we would be able to make it. He says that he would stand by me no matter what my decision is; to keep or abort. I won't count on this though, bc in my mind having this child means accepting I might have to do it as a single mother if not now then at some time in the future. I cant ignore thaat possibility.
I feel SO LOST. I feel that I cant spring this situation on my family with all they are going through, and that my boyfriend is right about it not being the right time for us. But I also think of my mother, and how I love her more than anyone on this earth and the fact that if I continue with this pregnancy that someone could feel that way about me. I know when its said and done my family might be mad at the situation but love my child as much as my nieces and nephews. I don't know how i feel exactly, but I know if i wanted to keep this pregnancy that I might be doing it alone, without the father.
I also think I am only about 3 weeks, so I have researched the abortion pill etc. Any thoughts or words would help. Saying goodbye to my mom and the possibility of saying hello to a new life inside of me is terrifying.