I hope someone can help me, i had a medical termination on saturday. i had the 1st dose of tablets in hospital then opted to have the rest at home so i could be in my own environment. I refused all pain relief aswell. Now i hate what i have done to my baby and i have changed my mind and want him back inside me where he was safe and warm. I have named him and my partner has made him a tiny blue coffin out of a swan box of matches. I still have my baby in my bedroom, I talk to him everyday, all day!! I have made a cd called sleep well my sweet angel which i cannot stop listening to. I dont think i can live with the decision i made and i want my baby back so so badly!! i dont think i will ever get over this, it has destroyed me i was so sure it was the right thing to do but it was right for me not for my baby and i feel like such a selfish evil monster now. I want to die to be with my baby. I hope someone can help me!!!
Clare

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Dear Clare,

My heart really breaks for you in your situation.

Dying with your baby is really not the answer. That is just more death and destruction and misery for your partner and your family.

Try to find a suitable place to bury your child, maybe talk to the local priest or pastor for advice if you want to bury him in consecrated ground.

It is imperative that you talk to a post abortion counsellor. Please do this. NOW. If you dont know where to start looking I can find you a place if you tell me the town you live nearest to.

PM me if you want to talk.

Love
Siobhan