Changing my perception on abortion...my experience

Hello,

I joined this site to share my experince with other girls/ladies who are also going through such an emotional and scary time and to also hear from anyone else who has had or facing a simular situation...

I have been with my boyfriend for four year now and a month ago i had to give up something that would've changed our lives forever. Aborting our child was something we never thought we would have to face, as we were very good with contraception and i regularly took pregnancy tests, just to be on the extra safe side. However i unfortunatley discovered i was pregnant when complaining i thought i had a cyst to the doctor. I was told i was 19 weeks preganant. Dont ask me how i didnt realise because i dont know. I had done 2 pregnancy tests in those 5 months, both coming back negative, so why was i to think otherwise?

I cried everyday for 5days, from the day i found out to the morning of my procedure.The week following i was ok, it wasnt untl i got back into my daily routine, were pregnancy and all that comes with it were constantly around me, thats when I crumbled.

Having a child is something me and my partner looked forward to in our future, but being in our early 20's it was most certainly not ideal timing, financially, physically, emotionally or otherwise.

I always said before my experience that i could never do it, especially after seeing things on TV about them, but i guess i have learnt that you cant tell how you will react in a situation like that until it actually happens to you.

I cant say whether i regret doing it or not, some days i'm fine and carry on as normal, others i am in pieces. To a certain extent i will mourn everyday for my unborn child, but for me and my partner, we made the right choice. I just look forward to the day now that we are told i am pregnant and i can cry tears of joys, not sadness.