You guys are fantastic 
Hi, I'm new here. I've been reading through the forum and I am really impressed with the support you guys give each other. 
I had a surgical termination yesterday. It was a hard decision, but for me, it was the totally right decision and I don't regret it.
I was 10 weeks pregnant. I had only local anaesthetic. I was terrified cos I didn't know what to expect. But the nurses were so wonderful and comforting. They kept me talking thro the whole humiliating experience. Even the surgeon kept apologising!
I can honestly say it wasn't as horrific or painful as I thought it would be. Bloody uncomfortable, but not painful. 
My after thoughts today - I am feeling emotional. I don't feel regret. I feel guilt for the life I destroyed but I don't feel guilt cos I've saved lives by having the abortion (no I'm not a super-hero, I'm talking metaphorically) 
I feel angry with myself for getting in this position in the first place. I was using contraception but I was very slack with it, thinking it would never happen to me (by the way, I have children and consider my family complete)
I never ever want to go through this experience again. So monday morning I am going down my doctors and requesting a sterilisation. I will pay private if I have to!
I always considered myself pro-life, but until you've been put in this difficult position there is no way you can judge.
Fair play to those who make the brave decision to keep their babies, you end up with a beautiful life in your arms. You may struggle but you'll most likely never regret having your child. You created life and you are willing to see it through to the end
But to all those out there who are torn apart by the distress of termination and all the emotions that go with it - even bigger fair play to you - you make the hardest decision of your life, face the judgement of others, have the guilt thrown on u from all angles and end up with empty arms and living the rest of your life wondering "what if?". Now that's brave (In my humble opinion)
I wish love and strength to all of you, whatever your opinions, whatever your choices, whatever your decisions
xxxx
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