Positive abortion experience
On finding out that I was 6 weeks pregnant 2 weeks ago, I finally had my termination earlier today. I have decided to post on this forum for the simple reason that when I was researching my abortion options, everything on the internet seemed to contain horrific horror story detail. For two weeks I was terrified at the prospect.
I decided to have an abortion because I'm simply not ready for a child. Although I am 28 years of age and in a loving relationship, I want to have a child when I am ready and am able to give that child everything that they need, in both an emotional and financial sense. I have only been with my partner for 6 months (we both live in separate cities, quite some distance apart and only get to see each other at the weekends); my boyfriend is also a full time student. As I said earlier, I knew that I was pregnant for 2 weeks before the termination finally came around and it was during those 2 weeks that I experienced a great amount of self loathing (for my own stupidity in falling pregnant), despair (if my partner really loved me would he truly let me go through with the termination?) and guilt. I will admit that there were the odd few days where I toyed with the prospect of keeping my baby but I knew that this was just the 'ideal' and coming from a single parent family myself, I would never intentionally introduce a child into this world, in what could amount to the same circumstances. I want my child to be born into a loving and stable relationship, where his/her's happiness is paramount. The last few days before the abortion were the worst - I was a tearful mess. I experienced a strange array of emotions throughout the two weeks but I knew deep down that I was making the right decision.
As soon as I arrived at the clinic (Marie Stopes in Manchester), I felt a sudden wave of calmness. All the fears that I had previously felt, seemed to disappear and there was no element of doubt in my mind. I chose to have a surgical procedure (I had read one too many horror stories regarding the medical method!) under general anaesthetic and would definitely recommend this to anyone that is considering having an abortion. I have no idea how long the procedure took (as I was asleep) but from reading lots of literature on this matter, Im guessing between 5-10 minutes. I appreciate that every person is different but I woke up feeling somewhat drunk, got dressed with a little help from the nurse, walked into the recovery room, and had a glass of water, cup of coffee and three biscuits all in the space of a few minutes. I did remain in the recovery room for just over half an hour but could quite easily have left after 5. There were a few other ladies in the recovery room with me and none of them seemed to be experiencing any difficulties, so Im guessing that they had all had a similar experience. I felt a very slight dull pain (nothing worse than a usual period pain) for about 5 minutes after the procedure but I was given a hot water pack to ease the discomfort. The procedure was nothing like any of the horror stories that I had read. I left the clinic feeling relieved and content with the decision that I had made. I feel that the experience has brought me and my partner closer together - I know that one day we will have children, when we are truly ready and not because circumstances have dictated.
Every person has a termination for different reasons and as long as you are fully comfortable and confident with your decision, don't let anything that you read on the internet influence you, or affect your overall happiness. In my opinion, it is better to terminate a pregnancy than allow a child to be born into an adverse situation.
If anyone needs to talk, send me a private message x
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